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SHES BACK!!! xD
Thursday, March 27, 2008 at Thursday, March 27, 2008

Yes!!! finaly she is back~~~~~

Waited 4 days its like waiting for 4 years!!!!

T_T

But when she came back we argue.. but its okay again now.. every problem have aways to solve.. =) by solving together.. =)

I'm just so so so so happy that she came back~~ you guys wont wanna see how my face look like.. its like numb.. just that my face is stuck to smilling so big kind of smile.. xD

weeee~~~

getting hyper~~~ hehe calling her later.. xD

Finaly~~ no more~~~ weeeeeee~~~

and Im cured btw.. =)

*His HEaRt BelOngS To HER Forever*
For Because she is My Wife.. xD

You're my angel of music. ♥


at Thursday, March 27, 2008

Missing Her when She is in camp Day 3

Today was really a sick day for me.. i was having a real high fever last night.. i ate some kind of medicine so thought it would help me alittle because tomorrow i still have exam.. But.. No.. It just got worst.. I finish my exam i asked my mum to pick me up from school already.. Went back home to try again that medicine.. then slept.. After i woke up i feel quite fine already.. But, all of a sudden it came back to me again soso so dam pain! my whole body hurts.. i got sore throat.. High fever... No energy... sigh..

Until i really couldn't take it around the time of evening like that.. So i went to see doctor.. i just thought doctor would just give me normally a jab? aikz.. He said.. 2 things that could be happening to me.. it is either just a high fever that will recover soon... or.. Denggi.. * Opened Big Eys* i was like woot?

The doctor said its not comfirm until my fever keeps going on till friday and if yes i have to do blood test already and things will just keep going worst and wost....

But Thank God and thanks to HER.. xD Well, it got better.. i feel much more better actually.. i remember i told her about this then she was really really so worried until no mood.. but i keep telling her lots of things saying this is not going to happen and don't worry so much.. =)This was at night..

Then we talked on the phone for about half and hour? and another half again later so 1 hour.. yeah.. lolz.. she was so sleepy.. and its probably my fault kinda keep calling her again.. sigh.. really miss her so much le.... =/ But Hey Shes Coming Back Tomorrow!!! YESH!!!!

But she said there will be another camp like this next year.. so i was really not that happy.. she said dont know if she wants to go.. because this year she said maybe going.. then she did go.. so makes me thing if its dont know yet it would be yes again.. and it would be like this again.. =( This is like so screw up.. no schedule.. trainers were late! foods are the same malay things... zzz.. They won't have enough sleep too!!!! what kind of camp is this?!? Sigh i really support her le.. but just knowing this camp is like this.. i really duno how to support so much le.. sorry dear.. =(

*HiS HeaRt BelONgs To Her ONLY*




Missing HER when She is in Camp Day 4

YESH!!! She is coming back today!!!! I feel much more better today! lucky it wasn't really denggi after all!!! happy or not dear? xD told you nothing will happen to me de la.. i Will take care of you de ma.. i sick then how to take care of you? xD

For now im just waiting for her to come back~~~ Can't Wait!!!!! T_T


*His HeaRT BelOngs To HER For EterNity*

You're my angel of music. ♥


Missing Her When She is in Camp DAY 2
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 at Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Morning.. it was just a normal morning.. nothing to say about today's activity.. coz theres nothing..

My ekonomi asas is a real killer... 3 questions i have to do 1 or 2 questions part of it i didn't study..kinda studied the wrong part.. waste.. =/

After school it was raining really heavy.. But i ran and grab a cab too.. whole body very wet.. went home just changed then hurried msg her and i got to talk to her on the phone for about 5 mins? Better than nothing rite?

Until now.. I got a high fever.. =/ Sigh.. wish she was here.. feel really uncomfortable right now.. but i wanna wait for her to msg me.. I want to call her and talk to her for awhile.. I really miss her so so so much~~~ Couln't get to see her in school today.. so is tomorrow and probably day after tomorrow too.. =/

The camp was real lame.. she had to wake up by 3 45 in the morning? just to get ready? but in the end the trainers were late.. WOOT? SO CALLED Trainers... No qualification trainers i assume..

So was kinda worried that she doesn't have enough rest.. Worried for the whole day.. Kept thinking of her if shes okay or not and stuff..

well today they ate curry again.. Shes sick of it so went to get some other food.. lolz.. silly girl.. next time i cook for u to eat la ok? no curry.. xD ok? =) mwuackxzx..

Just 1 more day.. 1 more day.. Then she'll be back home.. i can't wait!!! hurry back dear.. miss you really really so much!!!

Can you come back right now??? T_T

Really miss you so so much dear..

-*His HeArT BelOngs to HER* -

8.3.1
8 letters..
3 words..
1 meaning..
"I LOVE YOU"~
I MISS YOU~
I WANT YOU~
I NEED YOU~

You're my angel of music. ♥


Missing Her When Shes In Camp DAY 1
Monday, March 24, 2008 at Monday, March 24, 2008

This morning i woke up and just so lucky that when i woke up she msged me already.. then i called her awhile.. we talked only just awhile because she has to get ready to go soon already.. sigh.. so fast.. then i slept then i woke up it was 7 10? she still haven't told me she finished getting ready so i called her and stuff.. she didn't pick up and all.. until she reached the place she msged me saying shes fine and stuff like that.. >< so worried at start.. sigh..

we smsed quite a few times today being her First day of the camp for her.. I Missed her so so so much that i couldn't describe how much can it be explained to others... sigh..

She is fine in the camp right now.. Sms-ing with her while blogging right now.. She complaint about the foods there.. silly piggy.. theres only curry to eat like that.. its like in jail or something.. lolz.. curry fish, vege and stuff like that.. hope it will be still ok like that le..

jsut 3 more days to go.. then she'll come back.. i really miss her so so much.. i cant stop thinking of her..

tomorrow I'm having my ekonomi asas paper 2 exam.. studying too.. but just seem to keep thinking of her.. T_T really cant stop thinking if shes ok.. even though if i know she is... i just keep wanting the time to pass real fast... 3 more days.. i just want to see her again~~~~~~ couldn't see her for the next 3 days.. T_T

Dear.. today is just day 1.. and Im missing you like i've lost something for like so long like that.. T_T i dunno how is it going to be like for the next 3 days until you come back.. T_T

I really wished that you didn't go to that camp.. T_T but still in another way im supporting HER to go for the camp that is because she wants to go.. =)

Hope time passes quickly!!!! Please!!!

*His HearT beloNgs To HeR ForEveR*

MISSING HER SO MUCH!!!!

AHHH!!!!

You're my angel of music. ♥


Sunday, March 23, 2008 at Sunday, March 23, 2008

Waking up early.. waiting for her to come back.. Because she went to temple in the morning

Sorry dear.. didn't know you're going there today.. if not i would have said lets sleep together earlier.. T_T nvm.. lucky u automatic fell asleep first.. haha.. =)

well.. i have nothing much to say.. But only

She is going to the camp tomorrow.. ='( But i promise her i'll be fine.. So i can concentrate on my exams too.. Not to always worried so much every single time when she is in camp..

I really really wish i could know everything that is going on with her in camp.. I'm really worried something would happen if shes not enough rest or something else..

All i can do is pray that things would go on great and very fast... T_T 4 days camp.. I'm really going to miss you dear..

Yesterday i wanted to hug her before i leave to ymca with my boys.. but scared she would mind friends seeing.. i really thought today can at least go out awhile with her.. for drink or something.. or a walk at the park.. I really want to hug her before she leaves.. When i hug her i don't want to let go at all..

I'll try my best dear.. =) u have fun in camp ok?

*HisHeArtBeLonGstoHER*

You're my angel of music. ♥


Saturday, March 22, 2008 at Saturday, March 22, 2008

Today was definately very tiring day.. After all this and that..

She went to look for him... i just stand walking here and there.. hoping she'll come back fast.. I just feel alittle weird.. i don't know.. please don't ask me how it feels..

After that they said i have to go for Band later.. I didn't go..

I was supporting Her in her competition..

After that, so smart of me.. Not bringging down my wallet.. she had to use hers.. so i was like holding her purse.. went to buy drink.. shared with her 100 plus.. that would have been sweeter eh?

She wanted to go back up and wash her legs and shoe.. she didn't want me to accompany she says she will ask the other friend to.. seeing her come down.. with yes.. one of her friends.. then him at the back.. then she was sitting with them... becoz when i saw her come down i thought shes walking back to me d.. but not saying i dun like it..i felt like a jerk not letting her like that.. or something..

Then after that we walked and stand together for the rest of the days..

talk alot.. continue drinking that 100 plus.. then play with phone alittle lor.. ><

We really talked alot this time.. xD today counted as one of the best day being with her~~
and guess what date is it? 22nd again.. It's like every 22nd of a month we will be together.. xD But we are together every single day wad~ xD

I really really didn't want to end this day.. I never want to end any days being together with her..

One funny thing.. those bb boys so smart until they look for the teacher.. then teacher asked me to come.. then she said.. " u like that la? care about girlfriend ur bB boys dun care already la?" then i just smiled.. xD lolz... those boys ah.. cannot tahan them d..

after that.. went for BB and stuff just dun feel good.. so uncomfortable..

She is going the camp the day after tomorrow already.. aih~ please.. i really dun wan to end these 2 days for now.. i dun wan to.. ='(
She said the camp changed to 4 days only..

I just dun feel comfortable anymore.. my heart aching so badly.. i really want to know what happens.. will she be alright? enough sleep? enough rest? things like that.. im really really so crazy about it.. ><><

Thats it.. bye..

-*HisHeaRtBelOngsToHER*-

You're my angel of music. ♥


Friday, March 21, 2008 at Friday, March 21, 2008

Today.. Seeing her came to school.. walking with one of her friends small little kid. I know its nothing..and funny thing is he always follows her or something..

I saw her like.. keep on talking with a boy.. seeing her doing that.. i know shes doing something either helping him or asking him for help.. Using this kind of thinking it does help me not to think like last time.. I was thinking during my exam, what if i were to be like last time? what will happen later..? I would just go down say why are you talking with him? u know im not that happy? i dun like that.. ( being stupidly emo ) again..
Yes.. still actually im not that happy.. but not like last that kind.. just different.. I can't be so selfish!! i hate myself like that!! I hate that old me!!!

After School's Sports day rehersal.. she looks so tired~ i gave her the cold water that i bought before i went back down to look for her.. i accompanied her walking up.. she look so tired.. im worried that if she will be fine later or not.. i really wanted to stay in school being beside her..

She is going for the PBSM camp... and its a 6 days camp.. I for sure definately will be very very very very very missing her so much.. >< i really don't know.. I'm just tring to support everything she does.. I want to let her know I'm beside her.. I'll support everything she does.. and this camp doesn't come always.. i couldn't say i really dun wan her to leave my side.. i Cant bare to say this..

Knowing being like that.. i would be at home.. sitting down on my bed.. waiting for her sms.. looking at my phone all day long.. wonder if shes fine.. wonder if shes alright..

Sigh..

Ill stop here..

*His heart belonGs To HER* -Forever-

You're my angel of music. ♥


Wednesday, March 19, 2008 at Wednesday, March 19, 2008

If i ever lost you,

My days would never be the same,I

'd go over every minute every second,

And see myself the one to blame,

I'd never breathe a single breath,

Without thinking of you,

I'd never step a single step,

Without knowing what next to do,

I'd never blink a single blink,

Or shed a single tear,

Without loving you,

And wishing you were here,

I'd never hold out my arms to another,

The way i would to you,

Never kiss another,

The way that you and me do,

I would never look at another,

Or smile or laugh or cry,

For to do all that to someone else,

I would rather just die,

If i ever lost you,

I would never know what to do,

Cause there's no one in this whole wide world,

That i love as much as you.

Rui.. will you marry me? =) Hold my hands.. I'll never let it go..

You're my angel of music. ♥


at Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Being in a slow paste of learning how to understand..

I didn't really made it so bad today~ she didnt want to let me see her results.. so i'm like acting alittle sad... ><

Today when i talk to her she just keep asking me to go find my friends or something again.. looking like this.. in the other hand seeing her talking with other boys.. its like.. my heart had been knocking by a hammer everytime i see.. But i cant do anything... i didn't want to make thigs worst..

i know she just wants me to do my things too and not just being with her.. and still i have to give her space to talk with other boys and her friends.. i really cant help it when she talks with other boys more than me.. i really cant.. but i'm holding on.. knowing i cannot always be like this..

To Girls and Boys who are in relationship.. Give them their space will ya? just try.. because being together as couple.. it doesn't mean literally being together EVERY single time.. thats what i know.. I really want to be but.. i have to hang on not be like this.. i know she will only understand this sooner or later.. i just have to wait..

Tho my heart breaks sometimes.. but when i get back home ill just keep trying to fix it back.. beacuse its just a minor pieces.. and i shouldn't be like that.. Keep remembering.. Give her space... thats all i know.. =)

*Only Want HER*
* His heart belongs to HER*

You're my angel of music. ♥


Monday, March 17, 2008 at Monday, March 17, 2008

Sigh...

I did it again.. thats all i can say.. =/

I just kept on bugging her keep asking her whats wrong.. these and that.. making her thinking that i don't even trust her at all~ keep making it all seemed like i cant trust her or something... when shes busy i think she is doing something didnt want to chat with me.. when she is doing her things i think that im alone already.. things and others that made something like this..

To other couples boys/girls.. Please.. give them a break.. they have to have their own space in their lives eventhough being together with someone.. and knowing if ur gf/bf didnt want to tell you the truth they have their own reasons~ they have their own rights to decide for themselves and not YOU~ give them a break and space already~

Didn't tell you the truth doesn't mean its on purpose.. its probably because he/she doesn't want you to feel worried and sad with them.. and YES i know you wan to be sad and worried together with Him/Her.. But hey~ He/She just feels better if their ownselves being sad rather their love ones being sad too~~

this is what i learn today.. =/ im sorry darling.. forgive me please.. ><

Love You Always
Your silly piGgy

You're my angel of music. ♥


Recruits' Boots Camp
Sunday, March 16, 2008 at Sunday, March 16, 2008

I'm just gonna keep it short and simple aight? xD LOL

Day 1

First of all, i felt kinda stupid coz i'm like the earliest there waiting for those bunch of monkeys to arrive... waited around 1 hour plus? ah anyways.. (kept thinking of HER). After that the camp started when they all have arrived to the hall.. I was playing piano that time..( Missing HER). Then after that we started our programme with check in then drill, i was kinda OKAY to them.. not to fierce, not to nice...(Thinking of HER). Then after that we had sports.. I was kinda like.. er.. nothing to do.. (Missing HER so much). Waited for quite long then finaly they've finished and we proceed to our next programme which is DINNER! Yeah man! xD ( Thinking of HER). Then we have our singspiration led by me again.. I got Beaten up for singging a song trying to make them hyper~ Amazing huh? ( Thinking of HER!!!). After that we had erm.. classes for them.. during that time, we went up to our rooms.. playing.. and chatting.. and ya... thats us.. xD. After that it was lights out time.. We actually had a Fire Drill session during 2 30.. i was like.. WOOT? I'm tired like crap already~~~~~ T_T but Anyhow.. I was in charge of it too.. Making them running after they come down from their room.. Amazingly.. we had quite a laugh.. WhY? Lol~ Coz the "Superman Suit Boy" came down.. Lol~~ anyways i wun mention who and how he looks like.. after that.. yes.. SLEEP~~~~ And MISSING HER SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!

Day 2
Morning we have our P.T session.. didn't want to wake up~ so tired~~ but what to do? recruits did it.. and i have to bare with them.. ( Thinking of HER). After that breakfast.. then bla bla bla bla bla~~~~ until "Amazing Race" it was OKAY~~~ not until the police station part.. i was like.. wooot... so freaking far~ my legs numb already lar wei.. ( Hoping She's fine). After all the tiring amazing race.. we came back.. it was real heavy rain that time.. SO~ i was kind enough not to ask them do anything.. supposingly i wanted to do something with them.. but.. xD They went for rest.. ( Sobbing~~~ Missing her SO MUCH) THEN~ a Meeting was held which i didn't know about and i had to go~~~ and Yes.. kinda lame.. nobody even send me any msg telling me today had a council meeting.. swtz.. then we went down for our dinner.. THOSE WHO didn't attend for dinner that went for meeting.. sighz..( Wanting to be with HER). After all those we have our button hole.. then we have our MOVIE night~~~ which~ we've discovered our new LCpl Tummy boy~ xD kinda lame.. LOL... oh well.. anyways.. after that we went back to our rooms.. and Before that we went to bought our " Incases" lol~ special word.. then we did a room check.. I really wanted to sms with HER.. but i was so so tired couldn't open my eyes already.. T_T sorry darling.. really sorry... I know you missed me very much and i do too~ but now im back.. =) ( I LOVE YOU) xD

Day 3
Which is the last day~ Finaly~~ we have our Breakfast for a start.. then Games for teams.. sienz sia... what to do?? anyways.. we continue our programme as usual.. until button hole test.. i was incharge of drill.. so Yes.. Im the examiner for Drill.. Giving them my highest marks i could give... unfortunately some couldn't make it coz they're really DREAMING~ swtz.. after all those test and stuff.. and Yes.. some ppl failed.. unbelieavable? Believe it! LOL... after that it was time to check out... then we did.. then then then..... we went for lunch~ i sat with few of the recruits trying to be friends with them.. because i've treated them kinda harsh lately.. xD

and YES i came back home~! but i'd still miss her so much!! because i can never stop thinking of HER no mater how or what.. Because She'll always be my one and only piggy Wife forever and ever in my whole life.......=) and school is tomorrow.. so is EXAM! damn it! im so tired.. >< but no matter.. thinking of HER makes me feel better.. xD

I'M back dear.. xd <3

You're my angel of music. ♥


Tuesday, March 11, 2008 at Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Holidays holidays... sigh~ this can be called as the WORST holiday Ever!!!

why? thats a GREAT question!

sigh~ i jst knew my grandfather had lung cancer... whole family accompanied him to the hospital and you know what we get for an answer?? or should i say excuse... or whatever lame-er word to cover what the doctor said...

Knowing that my grandfather still can walk and talk to the doctor.. he said.. all i can do is do a check for you.. you cant stay here...

WTH???? You can't stay here?? WTH is that? am i suppose to say No for an answer from this blardy doctor?? He's coughing out BLOOD YOU FOOL! YOU'RE NOW SAYING HE CAN STAND AND WALK AND TALK AND HE CANT STAY HERE COZ OF THAT???

WHY DONT YOU TELL ME U CAN DO MORE THINGS... AND YOU DONT NEED TO EAT AT ALL!?!?

Blardy hell.. and he advised us to send him to PRIVATE hospital.. i was like.. WTH again duh.. IF WE COULD AFFORT IT WE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE WOULDN'T WE?? JEEZ BRAINLESS PPL THESE DAYS...

and Why do i feel surprised of these government hospital.... My as well blow it down! You're not even trying to help you fool! I want to see what you say if i said back the same thing to you!

PPL ARE DYING HERE AND ALL YOU CAN SAY THEY CAN WALK AND STAND THEY CANT STAY IN HOSPITAL?? what in the world?!?!

thank God i wasn't in that hospital.. i would like blow up~ I'm not taking no for an answer.. If he wants us to go private hospital.. PAY For Us Then! Makes no sense right ppl? if we could affort going to private... WE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE!!! WHy would we waste time being in those so CALLED CHEAP HOSPITAL For??? and my as well im saying.. ur HOSPITAL is full of freaking germs!

MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL! i was so freaking hurt knowing these things happen.. things just go wrong.. brainless ppl still exist in this world.. woopie.. hurrah for those idiots.. so called hospital... MY FOOT!

Sigh.. anyways.. still finding ways to cure him.. still not in a deadly situation yet.. and SAY UNTIL HERE!! u Know what they say???? They say.. they would only take him in if he is in a FINAL STAGE OF LUNG CANCER! THEN WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU PUTTING HIM IN FOR? TO TAKE FREE CASH? IM GONNA GIVE YOU FREE PUNCHES IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT! NO CHARGE AT ALL!

Today.. i've made things worst yet.. argue with HER... made her cry and sad.. wasn't that bad until i kept talking and talking.. sigh~ its like i kept bothering her so badly.. and today my parents argued too in the car while going up to grandparent's house.. sigh.. knowing how my dad speaks to my mom and both together argue.. i would say its like 85%? exactly how i argued with HER... Sigh.. Im sorry dear.. i just thuoght i knew everything and saying im always thinking on ur side already and ur not.. i know ur trying too and you do... and im asking dumb questions again and again OFCOURSE You do! i just keep being stupid.. sigh~

But anyways.. we're fine.. AGAIN.. =) heh~ GOod eh? But. aiH~ still worried of him.. dam it.. im staying in a county with no hope.. swtness..

*His Heart BeloNGs to HER too* =D <3

You're my angel of music. ♥


Didn't know
Saturday, March 8, 2008 at Saturday, March 08, 2008

I've became such a jerk to everyone... All along i thought that i'm right.. no im not!

I kept saying im changing all those things its because of her.. its because i want to be with her forever.. want her to feel better together with me..

But no..

I didn't think of changing for myself.. for both together me and her..

now i only know many people dislikes me.. and yes.. now i only get what she's saying.. and now i got my head straight.. but i need to get up first..

things just not right as the way it seems to be or think like..

IM SORRY 'HER'

You're my angel of music. ♥


Clueless~
Friday, March 7, 2008 at Friday, March 07, 2008

Knowing that things are going quite well, Yet still feeling so weird and probably "Awkward".

I really want to know whats going on with things happening every single thing~ I really dunno what happens but i kept on thinking what is happening in my mind.. I'm just very curious every single time..

I kept thinking and thinking~ actually what is going on.. what is going on... But do i get an answer?? very hard to get the answer..

I'm still fine with HER... I still love her as much as i do like before never changed.. not less but even more! i'm just trying to let her be and hoping everything would be fine and things would go well every single day...

Holidays heating on.. but I have to study for my freaing exam coming up after hols... Why AAH?? I'm so freaing pissed that good things that are suppose to come but yet it doesnt come.. but bad things happen again and again! But i know things would be very good after that i knoW!!!

Recruits Boots camp are up ahead.. i should be helping out there but yet the same thing over and over again... 4 years plus in BB i dont see any changes in BB that much yet.. Yet i'm still being in here wandering when will it be changing... i would try to change.. for now~ im changing my tactics of teaching my boys in BB.. Weird tho~ Sigh~ Ooh Well.. Just forget it and continue living a live which is not so interesting.. but colourful when i Met HER...

Signing out - Kenny-

L.O.V.E = Love = Effort = Suffer = Joy = Peace = Together = Forever~

You're my angel of music. ♥