Hon's Little world (:

2009-09-01T22:08:00.001+08:00

Soooo sorry blog readers..... Didn't blog for so long. But as if a lot of people reading my blog. It's as if I'm talking to myself. Lmao.. Whatever.

Well anyways, Today's assessment just finished~ But what a wasted kind of crap. had to go all the way to Jalan Pahang ICOM to do the assessment for 10 mins that's all! ... speechless.

There is still music theory and assignment to hand up tomorrow morning. But I have faith my music theory would do quite good. =D At least it can help me to cover grade for my survey of pop music~ ='( Did kinda bad for today's assessment. Have to work sooo much harder for the next one.. I really have to concentrate a lot a lot! LOls...

Anyways I don't have any photo coz I didn't get the time to do photography~ So sorry people~ Btw I'm still thinking what website should i post all my photos on Yet. But I'll keep you all updated no worries!

Good thing is I have 2 new Ipods.. Sorta.. Got one classic 30gb and ipod Touch8Gb. So far Both of it works so awesome~ xD ahhahas especially Touch.. xD hahahas.. Still trying out quite a lot of applications though.. =D Will keep you guys updated! Ciaoz guys!

2009-08-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

Today was one of the most depressed day of my life

I rushed the slides for the next day and created a music for tomorrow but it seemed like it was all wasted.

I was so excited and yet worried that something might go wrong.

I couldn't even sleep last night.

Went to bed by 1am woke up at 3am and after that I couldn't sleep no more. having the feeling of hard time breathing.

So instead of forcing myself to sleep, I went to improve the song that I wanted to use during the worship session to make things nicer but what the heck right? No point of doing it if things gonna turn out wrong.

So i actually started getting ready at around 6 and I was ready to pick up the others to head to YMCA hopefully would be half hour before the thing actually starts but then we had some problem so I had to tell them to try drag the time and we won't be able to have one rehearsal to make things right. So we started right away when we're done setting up our equipments there

It was my first time not being ready enough to present something out to so many people. I feel so wasted in front of all of them. If I were in the crowd I would be asking " What the heck is this boy doing out there?"

It was really unorganized presentation so I felt really really bad since when I know I'll be late and without any rehearsal then.

But what can we do? I don't want to show such bad example still dragging it any longer so I started right away

I guess everyone needs to have one bad experience to fall and get back up once or twice in a life time right? I guess so.

My one sleepless night was wasted, My song was wasted

I could not help it but to blame myself for not getting everything done ready even though we don't have any rehearsal.

Now I feel that burden that's on my shoulders and its really heavy. I can't help it but having this kind of feeling in me that I've disappointed God, I've disappointed my friends, I've disappointed the Boys' Brigade of Malaysia.

Can you hold on to that burden? I doubt that. Now I doubt that I would have faith in myself for what I do for Him.

I'm Sorry.

Well anyways I couldn't put my music here so I might be creating one video for BB to repay things that I've done without sufficient preparation.

Soon to be posted.

2009-08-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

Owh wow.. what can i say about the world now? don't know.. really don't know @_@

This morning had college no idea why i woke up earlier at 6am tho.. So was a lil sleepy @_@ Lols.. but anyways.. Normal lar... Still have to go college and stuff.. xD ahhaas

I'll try to keep my blog nice and simple xD hahas

I guess i have nothing much to say about what I did today and such.. probably just things thats happening in this world?? or at least Our COUNTRY itself first.. =.=

Heard from friends that the prices for the mask raised up until rm5,6?? Isn't that ridiculous? Don't you people think so? It really is.. I have no idea what am i doing in this place that isn't humble enough to even offer others help BUT creating more problems to others.

How could others afford if they wanna survive in this planet? H1N1 Is so dangerous and I think the people who are selling them are just being so inconsiderate selling to consumers at a price that is really really unacceptable.. I still can't believe it.

Hoping the government would see through this and do something about it.. It's really really stupid.. You what i'll reply if you tell me that you're selling a mask for rm5 or 6? Ill give you a mirror to look at your own stupid face!

Is it really that hard to be humble for once??? People are trying to prevent someting that has risks to their lives.

I wanna see how you people whom are selling at that range of a price to beg for help next time and how you'll get treated the next time.. Don't ask for something that you couldn't even think of offering to the need. So disappointed with people these days..

Came back home from college I brought my grandma to a clinic to check on her knee because she kept complaining the pain that she has since morning. Brought her there she could barely walk. I was really feeling very very very sad inside of me knowing that she's getting older and older each and everyday. Nowadays spending more time than before with her. Last time i come home i'll hide upstairs and such but now I spend some time with her talking downstairs,watching tv and such..

When it was her turn doctor did some check ups for her and he gave her a jab at the knee. Seeing her in such pain really kills my heart. I don't wanna see her suffer like this anymore. I don't know what to do if anything happens. I really don't want anything to happen!

She's in so much pain and I could not even bare to see how much she's suffering.. She kept having headache and dizzy every time. Sigh. I really don't want, I don't want anything to happen!

I don't want to look forward for now. =(

2009-08-16T18:50:00.003+08:00

Sigh must i say it? It's like nothing much everyday. Nothing to talk about nothing to share about.. Such a boring life already.. T_T or something is wrong with me

Just had a real tiring day yesterday.. Had a bad headache as well @_@

almost killed me.. made me go crazy and such..

Anyways I'm actually thinking of whether should i close this blog down. No one seems to read my blog or something.. maybe i might switch? i don't know..

Waiting for badminton.. Waiting for sports.. Waiting for music softwares to arrive... Waiting for the moment i get to be with her everyday.. T_T

2009-08-14T22:28:00.002+08:00

Lols awesome day!!!

Sorry guys no photos today. xD spent almost whole day experimenting the macbookpro 15" xD So so so awesome people!

I actually knew the macbooks arrived college yesterday evening because my friend told me about it. Just wondering whether are they giving us by today or not xD

I even had a real strong feeling that the macs will be given to us today because i dreamt about it last night XD not sure what tho but it was like testing how good was the mac xD

So morning we went Mc Donalds again to get our BREAKFAST xD Lols.. After that we went to college and looking at the door and HEY! Notice there! " Students you may college your mac in the MML at 10 o' clock today." xD LOL.. Woohoo!

So jacky and I actually went up to check if they're in the room earlier hoping we could get it faster xD Lols... Too bad.. could not get it xD

So we had this replacement class this morning at 9am and guess what? only 3 people came! including me! such loyal and faithful students xD hahahas... extra grade.. =P All i did in the class was like counting how long more to get our macbooks! Lols...

Until it was time to get our macs we went up to 5th floor admin again to rush Lee to give us our mac xD hahahas.. went back down and we had to do some document stuffs before grabbing our mac.. SO MANY of them.. xD Which one to choose.. hmm xD so i went A b c d e f g xD hahahs stupid.. xD Lols..

Got it and i started it.. so nice.. the start up awesome!!! No kiddin people! Lols.. then i was like sooo rush to finish this whole setting up thing and like" we can leave already? YES!" Go sungei wang time to get our mac protector xD

But in the end didn't buy coz my new model type the stocks were not in yet.. have to wait till next week or something but anyways im going mid this sunday to get it lar. xD hahahas..

So far i've used it and its really indescribable~ Lols... I will post some photos of it sooonnn.. just not today... tired.. xD

lols so i guess thats about it first? downloaded most of the applications that i should have.. xD hahahas

Peace out...

2009-08-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

What a stupid and rough day.. =.=

Thanks to college AND Apple company.. what a rip off..

Today was the last day of what they've promised us that the Macbooks will be delivered to ICOM and we will be able to get it too. In the end? Big disappointment.

We actually went up to asked if our mac is here in ICOM already coz the "Course Leader" Told us that Apple gave him their word that the macs will arrive either tuesday or wednesday. Today was the last day to hand over. Guess what? The Macs din turn up, EVEN the "COURSE LEADER" NEVER TURN UP AND HE WENT ON LEAVE! BULLSHIT!

We were so pissed! Macbooks didn't arrive one thing! The Course Leader didn't turn up to explain to us another thing! Both sides have their false!

First things first, the macs that was supposed to be delivered to us by the 13th of July until Now! Never gave any explanation by the person incharge only by the admistration level WHOM gave us wrong informations all the time!

Week after weeks we have been going up to the admin department every class ends every college day! It's not like we have THAT much of a time to go up to admin just to get back the same bull answer! I'm so pissed off that I really want to sue them for real!

It's Next week.. So sorry.. Hopefully the next week... sooo sooo sorry.. its the next 2 weeks.. really really sorry.. next week.. Okay.. you guys will be getting your macs the next tuesday or wednesday. How stupid can these people think we are? We're 18 and above. Don't you think you guys are really too much giving us false answers?

We need our Macs for our assignment! Even if we do not have any reasons for it I don't see why there should be a delay for the macs!! It's really ridiculous! There should be a payback for what they have made us suffered from! What about those who do not have laptops and computers? Do You guys know that they had to go CyberCafe to do their bloody assignments? We do not pay 11k+ So that we can have access to the COMPUTER LAB(which was sooo friggin slow) or paying extra to visit the cybercafe! We Pay 11k+ For a better knowledge! Better Quality of Education! Better Tech!

Second thing! This time it has to do with college! Whats wrong with the administration!?!? Giving false information! Especially course leader who gave us BIG hope! If the thing is not here You should be here to explain to us! Rather than us making the complaints to college's staff members! Instead he went off to take a leave. Without explaining us. Is it that hard to just stay one day to explain to us? Or even an email to us? EMAIL.. How hard can it be? Yes we know it is Apple's problem but now it is your problem because you're not being responsible as how you are suppose to be like SIR!

I think it is very stupid and unprofessional of him to just leave like that without any explanation. wasted our time going up to admin level to make a bloody complaint without him around! We did write a complain in the book of complain or wadever it is. Another thing.. 5 working days to respond? Don't you think it is a real long waiting? Moreover our problem had been delayed for that LONG!? Where are your priorities at people? I Don't see any protocalls moving! Course Leader not turning up? I assume he is one of the people who can SPEAK proudly.

I Come to a music college to have fun and learn something that I want to do in the future that I LOVE! Not something that i think its so unprofessional of me to study in this college to gain NOTHING at all. I pay a sum of money to gain better knowledge! Why else i come to ICOM? It's not that big or however it is. Your Course interests me. But it turns out how things work here that turns me off from what I really love in my life! If you admin or lecturers could not work together as one. Think of a way to solve it or just go get a Job that is suitable for you!

All fun is coming from students! A real disappointment there. How else do you want us to promote your college to our friends in the future? I'd say it's not gonna be a good experience being there.. Having us to wait for macs. Lecturer late when you told us that we are suppose to be punctual all the time! We are... Are you?

We had enough of this nonsense after 5 weeks already. It's the 6th week. If i were you guys I'd start thinking ways to solve this issue to shut us up before we are really fed up with all this nonsense!

Damn.. Don't even have the mood to blog any happy things.. Damn fed up today..

Ill post photos next day or something.. I'm done blogging.. what a rip off..
Pff

2009-08-10T23:08:00.015+08:00

Owh wow~ What a exhausting DAY!!! @_@

Morning Class and guess what! Audio Production class was canceled
because Risabh couldn't make it to class today.... aww.. (wish was someone else tho =P) KIDDIN xD

So we actually have this SO MUCH of a time to hang out and all. We SORTA decided to go
and watch G.I.JOE!
actually took some time to decide WHERE and HOW to go. Lols.. 6 person stuffed in a HondaxD
Was LAZY to drive my car =P xD shhhhhhh
BTW the MOVIE.... AWESOME!!! FANTASTIC!!!! SUPERB!!! INDESCRIBABLE!!! AND SCARLET,ANA =P( Aaron,Jacky,Xin,Glenn, Joker know what i mean =p)

After Movie we went back just in time i think~ for Frank's class. We started talking about the movie instead of what were we suppose to discuss stuff and all and I got punked =.=

After class we went up for another small strike in a small group but it was just like playing so yeah it doesn't really hurt xD hahahs.. HOPING Tomorrow or Wednesday the Mac is already in ICOM@_@

After all those crazy things happening I had to go back home and wait for my mum to go for a dinner at her Uncle's house... So big! @_@ Wide.. Lols...
It was fun =D

Here are some pictures that I took~ Always with my cam =D

This.. Is what i have for breakfast every College Morning =X
But I Still don't get fat!!! =D

Theory Class xD Stupid jacky blocking my view.. xD

Hohohoo.. and this.. this is where we always come up and do our protest here right after our theory class all the time!!! xD We never get tired.. xD
admin were like " You people again?" xD hahahs.. siao..

Here is where we spent our rm12 for the movie! xD LOL... But ITS WORTH IT!!! xD

Now they need a bigger mobile to shout at.. LOLxD

Rainnnn T_T but just abit lar.. xD hahahs =P

Isn't she Lovely? =P ahhahs so cute...

soooo cuteeeeeeee3333 =P ahahahs..

Lols.. too many of them cute ones.. xD ahhahas...

Okay this got to be the cutest!!!! xD

sooo many xD Lols...

=P Im out of words.. LOL

last but not least.. cant do all of my photos without my Canon.. xD hahas but actually most of my photos i uploaded in this post is actually taken by my digital canon. xD Not bad!!! =P xD hahas

Anyways that's all folks! =D

2009-08-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

Today I'm not gonna blog about what happened today or anything. I'm gonna post something that really bothers me soooooo much after what had happened today!

Okay maybe about lil about today. =.= I went to ymca with my friends for volleyball(drove today). After volleyball go back home kan? I actually parked at a LEGAL spot. There is this small lil mamak stall next to my car. They actually put stack of chairs behind my car, Not Enough, Putting Tables! infront of my car! It's like my car is protected or something. So I came and this guy who WORKED there moved the chair just A BIT. I only had this i'd say 1 person can actually fit in just like that. Can you imagine how much space? Lil right? So this fella actually shouted at me saying " Move out lar, got space wad. How you get your licence punye? Kancil also cannot" So i actually replied saying not enough space right? This fella kept asking how i get my licence. =.= retarded.

So i looked at him with anger and told him i don't have enough space to move out. He actually replied me like as if he really wanna fight or something. So after moving the tables too! I had just ENOUGH space to move out i almost knocked a guy coz he was that stupid to still sit there =.=

I really don't understand you malay or islamic people. And NO I'm not being racist here people. I Don't have the time to blabber all those nonsense in my blog and it wastes my space alright? I really can't take it with these people. It's never the first time. I'd say almost everyday they really want to find trouble. Not with US chinese but with themselves as well. Do they really have the urge to get into a trouble? I think they should really have this PLACE where they can all stay in and fight all they want and not to harm anyone that really thinks LOGICALLY. if HE thinks my KANCIL can move out from a 1 boy's space~ I think he really needs to do a check up for his eyes. I think he really have eye problems.

SERIOUSLY People! GET A LIFE! I have this poll here not to be racist again. BUT to show if anyone who has something to do with these. WAKE UP! You only have one life. Live it properly. You really think getting hurt or hurting people is part of life. GET YOUR OWN LIFE SOMEWHERE ELSE.

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2009-08-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

Woohoo~~~ Today SORTA awesome!!! =P

This morning had the strangest dream ever! LOL~ had a football dream.. Wow~ =P It was MANU Vs Chelsea or something. They're in BLUE~ So either that or everton or something. xD So it was like this. Until this moment of excitement! Chelsea was about to score! First fella tried first shot and it hit the post and the second one hit to the side and got saved by Van De Sar then it was a open shot for one of the players and he kicked like a baby.. Therefore a wasted chance.. NOTHING! xD Then when it's MANU's turn it was a corner and just abit more after the corner kick it was reaching to the goal's line and scholes just went and tip a bit and GOAL!!!! @_@ wohooO!!! AFter that i woke up.. LOL.. Stupid! xD

After that freaky dream I went to get ready to go out with jacky to town. After getting ready that fella still not here yet! =.= So i decided to watch Tv-larh. What to do? xD And can you believe it? I watched the last episode of Avatar!!! WOohoo!!! Now my life is complete. NAWG I'm just kiddiN! LOL... xD It was awesome tho.. xD

So we reached town at around 10 something i think or something lar~ Lols.. I went to a ATM to get some cash. So it was my turn to do the thinggy so I actually got the card out and put it in to the ATM but WOot! Turns out it was my IC. I'm like SHYET! Lols.. Hurry up and get my card out to do the withdraw.. xD Stupid AGAIN! xd

Before taking our lunch we went back to Chambers just to play around xD see Auntie! hahhas.. we miss her so much xD then we actually have SALARY unclaimed!!!! xD WoohoO! I got 70 i think.. But in the end i had to pay back them coz i owe them a set of strings that cost 24 like that so i only got back yea u know not even 50! T_T

After lunch and everything we had to go back to desa to pick someone up @_@ so during when we're in the elevator we were actually talking and stuff normal right? this MALAY people suddenly whisperin to each other saying that we're so NOISY~ so when its their turn to go out... and HEY I really din know what was i pressing okay? the door actually shuts coz of me pressing it when they're half way out xD so i was like oops.. then close again xD hahas...

I actually have to go BB for this week coz of photography again for them because the 32nd Hong Kong Company Boys Brigade actually came to visit us! So cool! And I've noticed they like to POSE alot xD Not that its a bad thing or something.. Just.. too much? xD So I did some photography and fellowship with them. OCM came out with a Portfolio that i didn't know of.. So heres what I'm incharge of. @_@
1. Jr Drill
2. Junior Physical Training
3. Worship
Same old same old.. Lols..

After half day of BB i actually went to Mid valley to follow jacky and taokei and One more friend that's supposingly to be A special friend? xD i didn't really introduce myself coz YOU KNOW! I'm just myself that I'm shy so i don't talkxD BTW on the way SOMETHING happened.. xD But i think that fella don't want me to mention it out so.. yeah.. sorry guys. xD So we ate at noodle station.. crap alot stuff like that.. get to know jacky and taokei's friend.. whom is a christian that is suppose to go to church later for service =P xD So we were actually kinda late for service already so yea really sorry =/ lols.. but Church service was awesome! And I might? have a new vocalist for my band? hahas.. don't know about her. xD

Anyways It was awesome. The church service today i mean. Eventhough i don't really know what was it all about coz it was in MandariN! LOL.. But I felt the aura.. xD

Btw having a worship to do in the next 3 weeks? i think~ for girls wing. So yeah.. EXCITED! But still no full permanant band members sad lar.. T_T but hopefully kar yan you will join lar.. at least just for this time. xD hahas..

Anyways that's about it. And people u know why i get to post such a LONG LONG blog xD Coz i actually write it down on a paper(notebook) that is a small one i carry a long in my camera bag. xD hahas so yeah.. xD

Facebook and My Blog are always updated now! MAC is nearly here!!! Ready to go to a more Higher TECH! =D WOOHOO!!! GODBLESS

We must be One! One Vision! One Hope! One Goal!

2009-08-06T20:36:00.005+08:00

awwhhh yet another boring day again!!! @_@ HOW CAN I LIVE ON LIKE THIS!?!?

afternon went to mid valley with jackie to have lunch at noodle station. Btw Noodle station took over the spot of YoyoSnack My favorite place!!! T_T I guess noodle station is gonna be my new favorite place to hang out in Mid Valley then. Sigh..

Justin came by after when we're done eating. He was actually waiting for someone in mid valley but then we went to gardens to just walk around just to kill time. Went in to borders just to check out books( AS IF I REALLY LOOK AT BOOKS) lols.. We picked up those easy japanese,thai,korean etc etc translation books and we were like shouting whatever its in the book. LOL retarded.. xD LOL

After that went home and just sleep and yeah until now.. Well actually went for dinner at desa already till now ~

Btw here are some random pictures xD

What is this u ask? LOL.. I have no idea i can tell you that. My friend told me the other day his school was blackout and he showed me the photo~ Lols so I told him i was in Tokyo and Tokyo blacked out too and it looks alil like this! =P xD stupid!! xD

Somewhere near my college. Can you believe it? How shtty this jam is like? It's because of the SO CALLED "Traffic Police" THanks for the help! NOT! MAde it so much worst! =.=

Such inconsiderate driver that parks next to this car who was in a parking spot blocking one of the lanes in OUG Parkson. People should get tickets for this! I'd scratch his car if I'm bad! xD

Well, thats about it for random pictures for today! xD hahahas...

Damn disappointed with ICOM. Can you believe it? Tell me, what is the first impression you get if This International College of MUSIC? Fun?Enjoy?music?friends? Trust me.. It ain't all that. SOME yes.. but not all. Administration sucks.. accounts dept sucks.. They sent me this email saying that i have a balance of 9k plus where else my balance is actually only 4k plus. Wrong info kept passing on every single day!!! exam dates.. NOT ENOUGH music equipments! Even a piano's sustain pedal broke and no one give a damn about it! NO MACBOOK YET!.. IF You all wanna study music so badly you guys better have patience with this college coz i can tell you i cant hold on much longer if this crap keeps going on every single college day.. =.=

Btw.. My special canon shots are all in facebook profile. You can go check it out there guys..

http://www.facebook.com/blurryken24 . Take care ya'll

2009-08-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

Lols today kinda bored! Well, actually really really bored! aww man @_@

Morning woke up went to Mc D as always before college to have breakfast there. Was online at that time to check facebook or something but suddenly my " Student " was online. Didn't even go school~ what a GOOD student lar right? xD ahhahas.. " WHy are you on?" xD

After that went for class and i was still online and such.. Lols.. then we were like watching this stupid people video that i posted in facebook.. LOL..

After class i went to book the E2 room for later's practice at 2. 30 after the audio's class. We went to Mc D again! omg and no i wasn't having my lunch there xD well sorta.. ate sundae chocolate =P hahhas.. yummm... long time din eat that already.. After that me and aaron went back to college for the next class later but its not until an hour i think when we're in college waiting for the next class LOL. After the lecturer arrived, jacky asked aaron to inform him that if the lecturer is here already give him a msg or something but he said he's not even here when he was in the class room already.. LOL so they were late about 10 mins or so.

After class we went to E2 but unexpectedly so many other students came in and jam as well where else its suppose to be just me and Aaron and supposingly another fella to play drums. So we only played for like 45 mins? Coz we couldn't concentrate, too many people playing different things too noisy.. @_@

After that everyone went home. Those that have class later on they stayed back but like me and few others we left earlier =P hahahas.. Came back home and sleep and that was about it! Boring day.. @_@

And yeah.. PMR is getting near! To all PMR students good luck on your trials and for the real examination itself too =) Wish you students all the best in CIRCLES.. LOL xD

AND BLOODYHELL! NO MACBOOK YET!!! C'mon!!!

Macbook Pro 15' 2.66ghz Wanted.

2009-08-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

@_@ this morning i had to get up 7 am just to open door for my aunt and i slept around 2am last night! screw it lar. LOL.. Afternoon SOMEONE was suppose to pick me up and go for lunch together then after that go for badminton BUT they went to College before that so I couldn't wait for them so I went taman desa myself to get something to eat first and get my assignment printed out ready. While my assignment was being printed i went to get lunch somewhere nearby where I always eat when i was still a secondary student.

So i ordered the same old PaN Min to eat but it came to a disappointment that it taste like crap this time i eat! I'm like wth??? taste like plastic! LOL Then i went up to get my assignment and ready to go home. Called jacky and he said reached my house already... Never tell me earlier.. Lols... Then i rushed back home and meet them to go for badminton..

Reached desa petaling still have to wait for them to get their lunch.. So i tak boleh tahan so i ate also lar... Lols.. mouth itchy mar.. xD after that went in to the badminton place to start but no one was there so we played around an hour for free.. LOL. How awesome is that? xD

After that came back home and shower then online and did same old thing everyday.. face book.. this and that.. Lols.. after that dinner time i went to desa again for dinner.. I was suppose to be alone eating but suddenly this uncle came and ask me if the seat is taken so i said no lar.. takkan so bad right.. I was thinking of a fast dinner then leave then he suddenly talkedd to me about education thinggy.. So i just go with the flow lar.. Don't dare to say much xD until we're both done eating he paid for me! I'm like No thanks!! please! Pai seh!! Lols.. he said its alright lar.. it's been awhile.. so i just have to say thanks lar.. xD hahahas...

Well then afte rthat i came back home andd rest until now... So yeah.. xD

Oh yeah and check out my new mozila theme.. xD

2009-08-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

Owh.. what a shitty day!!! LOL!!!

Morning went to college ate the same old Mc Donald's Breakfast special.. Gonna get bored one day.. But hope not coz that's the cheapest food i can get there that is proper!!! LOL!!!

Alright alright, today is my first time having this assessment thinggy! 1 on 1.. Lmao~ Didn't really bother that much because it wasn't that hard probably? Lols.. Well, IT WAS! Lols.. After Mc donalds me, jackie and xin went to college and in to theory class which I so do not need it..lols so i kinda mess around in today's class with aaron with laptop.. we watched "football Idiots". Try typing that in youtube people.. It's really hillarious! LOL! Talk about football fake. xD

After the theory class we went for a another strike, protest, or what so ever it's called at the admin floor about the mac book and assignment due date. Can you believe it? They say within this week IF there is no problem. First they told me the specs of 2.53ghz which i understand its out of stock now but since now they tell me they're actually purchasing 2.66ghz i don't see why they could not get it in 4 weeks!? lols.. That's a big bull.. So, came back to assignment part. After that they told us lecturers actually have the power to push the date further or something due to no macbook for other student coz they don't have any computer access or internet as well.

Fine. We went in to the class we talked with our lecturer and he said he could not do anything! LOL! wth? that's another big bull. Lols.. So far in ICOM The worst things are happening all from Admin. Can you believe it? even the assessment schedule was wrong! "3rd August 09(TUE)" see whats wrong? =.= I didn't want to bother much about the assignment because i actually do own a computer and laptop so no point for me to argue coz it would be really stupid.

So Jackie and 2 of the students went to actually look for the senior staff/lecturer/wadever.. don't really care about the assignment thing. They started to talk in a real anger tone type so did not wanna bother them or so. Just trying to study abit for the assessment that is coming up Lols.. Oh yeah today's audio class was kinda interesting. =D learned about mixer.

So, after that it was assessment time! Shyet! i'm the thirdd one to go in and suicide. Everyone outside was like.. " die die die" Lols.. so I'm like fine la lets just get this over with. Went in, Frank asked questions i just answered those i know. Those that didn't know i acted dumb looking else where.. lols! then he say okay thank you.. So i'm like.. Done? Lols okay! go out! then i'm like PHEW!!!! LOL.. OVER!! XD quite stupid lar..

came back home after everything to take care of grandma downstairs. Stupid laptop keeps dying everytime when i wanna start and use it.. but at least now it's fine.. Shyet lar! all tech stuff sucks! phone is lagging.. Restarts its own. Laptop breaks down. screen goes fuzzy.. Lols!

GIVE ME MY MAC THIS WEEK! OR ELSE!!!

2009-08-03T09:13:00.001+08:00

Awww damn.. suckiest day man!

today having that bloody assessment thinggy today..

Hopefully its gonna be alright.. @_@

2009-08-01T22:19:00.001+08:00

Boring day! @_@

2009-07-31T21:20:00.003+08:00

Today kinda went out whole day since afternoon. Thanks to jacky, I went to the bus stop to wait for bus and went back home Then when to bus stop and but then forgotten to grab something so had to go back home again and then the last time going back to the bus stop. @_@

When i got back to the bus stop, at that point a police car stopped too and was going to check someone in the bus stop. I'm like "shyet, Why now" Lols xD no lar.. kiddin. I got nothing to hide.. OR do i? hmmmmm =P So where was i? oh yes. in the middle of checking can you believe what i heard? this police guy actually asked this man a question and scolded him "Bodoh". What kind of polieceman is that? I'm feeling so damn embarrased being a Malaysian. So is this how they want for 1Malaysia or something? United? or something? Well, ain't gonna comment much on it. =.=

Went to Mid valley for lunch with jacky at around 1 something or so before we get to college. Went to this new noodle cafe that took over "yoyo snack"'s place. People! Foods there are awesome! is a MUST to try there someday people!!! No kiddin. Tried this " I love you juice" thinggy.. And Jackie asked for a " I miss you" =.= I'm like woot! siao arh!? people think we're gay or some sort la bang.. =.=

After that we went to college earlier and get to see the friday performance. Awesome performance I must say, especially the rockers =D After that we were suppose to attend this meeting for all july intake students SOMEWHERE but what do you know. It was at the same place of the friday performance on the spot! We were asked to go out to the front. I was sooo smart that i stand at the first place next to the Mc. =.= I got pranked hard man... =.= He asked me for my name and i answered and im like wat the heck? Because the voice was modified by the audio mixers. So i started doing something cute and all. I'm the so called "cute" one.. Lols probably because im smaller than the others.. gr.. The others got pranked hard as well.

After that it was this Master and Slaves auction. We get to be the slaves! wow!!! yay!!! =.= lols.. I got the second highest bid by the senior i think or top ones la..... for... rm10. LOL. The highest one was the korean guy was sold for rm95! LOL! .. Anyways it wasn't that bad.. At least there are laughter and all Lols.. The main thing was to get us close to one senior and if we do come across any problems or questions we can ask our "Master" . Lol!

Well, that was almost about it. Until the next day! hahahhas.. Still waiting for my macbook 15" Damn it! Apple production soooo damn slow!!!! Still can't believe they never keep extra stocks for us. Hate this piece of crap =.=

2009-07-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Wow! today was one of the hottest day! The brightest too! @_@ grrr! people! stop killing the place that we all live in right now!!@_@

stayed home today to finish up my assignment. It seems like i exit the word limit for my assignment but supposingly with 2 question together. Now i have to do it all over again.. @_@ sigh...

Coming up, Survey of pop music test. @_@ damn.. hope i can pass!!! please!!! @_@

2009-07-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

hey there bloggers... I'm back again.. and yeah, I'm using a older laptop.. Sony vaio... My sister's and father's ex laptop.. =.= It'll shut off anytime tho due to its graphic card i think! @_@ that sucks..

Lemme see.. I really had a though week @_@

Couldn't get my macbook pro 15' yet. Still wondering whether ICOM's problem or apple's problem. I'm still going to ask here and there until i get my mac from apple malaysia then back to ICOM. It's really not fair that apple doesn't get ready any stocks for college. Since they have already signed contract, they should have known to keep stocks for college to get it right? Don't you think its really a big issue?

Students who doesn't own any desktop or laptop with them are going through a very very hard time. College Admin asked them to try using college's computers but it is so so so slow! and the screen is fuzzy if I didn't get wrong information from my friends who tried using it to finish their assignments and to do some research for another class.

Second is that I kept argueing with my girlfriend again and again recently. Something is really going really really wrong with me. I really do not know how to control myself not to be so so so sensative and thinking negative thoughts every single time! I think i've really crossed the line. Being too sensative. I shouldn't have questioned her shouln't have done so many stupid things to put a show. Sigh. I'm sorry but i won't do it again..

Third thing. Why do i always get to be the last? getting disappointed and all. I was really disappointed with 3rd KL's promotion stanards already. I'm really really am. I don't know why are they doing it but no matter what realy i also can't accept how they are appointng or promoting members anymore. I don't see any standards and aim to fight for anymore.

Last. Why does everything has to be wrong because of me? It wasn't suppose to be my fault! Not my problem! I don't get any advantages or anything. I really don't know what to say or think anymore. It's not like i didn't think of anything. I helped so in so many ways already but never appreciated. I really don't know what I did to deserve all this things If i were the one doing all those nice things...

Really disappointed with almost everything! Lord give me some help please! Sigh..='(

2009-07-23T21:11:00.001+08:00

- College assignment
- no macbook pro 15 yet
- everything in college is nothing!
- bad system in college

2009-07-05T12:46:00.002+08:00

It is a really really sad ending for MJ so i put some of his songs in my profile.

Tribute to Michael Jackson. The king of pop. Can never find anyone like him anymore but his songs lives in us forever =) Rock on MJ

2009-07-05T08:36:00.027+08:00

Hey everyone~ Could not post yesterday after a big day of outing with BB boys because I was going through a very very bad headache. So, posting now. =D

Well I couldn't get a good sleep as always these days. Woke up feeling soooo tired. Met up Chun yang and Terence at YMCA. Thought it was suppose to start by 8 but they say its only starting by 8 30 so we went to get something to eat for breakfast. 8 30 everyone started to get ready to visit the bird park and enjoy so many exciting challenge waiting for them at bird park and to discover. =D I myself just being a photographer but not so... for the BB activities but for my blog and photography samples =D hahas...

Anyways here are the photos taken by me while following them walking around the bird park. Enjoy =D

So old. Yet something that's attractive xD
KTM
Here is one of the groups =D *take your copy from me guys*
Isn't it Beautiful? =)
Same group
Bird Park KL =D

One of my Best waterfall with moving effect=D
Another =D
So LC lar.. dun even wanna look here awhile! xD
see? this one is nice xD hahas..

Best Picture! see the small rainbow? xD
parrot raising the national Flag =D xD
That's how long they have to walk to Planetarium. xD

Horses at bird park!??! xD

Anyways, that's about it for bird park yesterday. Well actually i have so many more pictures than that. xD aroudn 200 or so. But will be posting at facebook soon? I want to get my macbook!!! xD

Btw, Anyone wants to hire a Event photographer? I'm here =D
And...
Who is interested to join The1Revelation band? you think you got the skills? You got the tallent? Want to reach out to others? You're welcome to join Us =)

College orientation is tomorrow! @_@ crap! xD ahahahs... Getting busy soon ady.. no more hols..

Ciaoz all.. =D 18th MANU vs MY xD hahahs.. Going anyone?

2009-06-29T02:40:00.027+08:00

Urghhh!!! What a big Long and tiring day! Went out almost the whole day!!! Exhausted and all after coming back from the last program which is my mum's Birthday party at Sunway Pyramid.

Afternoon time went to grandma's house to visit and ate some of her delicious food that she cooks and all =D Today i played with my cousins PSP like mad as if I'm like a lil kid. xD Terrible isn't it? =D But that's me. Sometimes.. =D

Awww.. He knows how to shake.. =D
Dad with er couldn't remember whats the name xD
Teehee...
Humping my leg!!!

reaching the evening time we went home to get some rest before heading to Sunway for the birthday party with my family =D But of course i did not rest until there still a little time for me to rest. I get this bad habbit of doing things last minute so yeah.. xD hahahas..

At around 6 IF im not mistaken we took off and we reached there at around half hour later and it was huge and all that karaoke place! "AmpSquare". I'm like WOW! Let my pictures explain what I meant =D hahas..

AmpSquare
Mum and her friend =D
Her Friends~ =D
Mum and Sis xD
The karaoke party xD
Her Friends,Her,Sis Really having so much fun =D
Mum and sis again singing whole night long.. lols..
Party Getting crazy.. xD
My Ice cream!!! =P
Me and my mum =D haha weee..
=D one of my pics

Daddy Mummy.. weee
=D
getting close.. =D ahahahs.. friends messing with them xD
hmmm?? xD
sharon ahh kacau kacau... haiyo.. xD
Sis and Sharon
Lols.. funny pic.. xD
Happy Birthday MuM!!! =D

Well, thats it! Hun wished my mum happy birthday too!!! going to smack her so late also haven't sleep.. But the whole night was really awesome!!!! awesome party!!! =D

2009-06-28T00:49:00.014+08:00

Friday
Oh yes past 2 days were days to be remembered.... So many things happened.. Let me just start of with friday's one since i didn't post for friday and saturday so i'm doing them both now.. heehee...

Well well well, lemme see.. I passed by school but before that I got kinda almost a fight with this blardy malay that friggin just couldn't just go away. I was in a rush so i cut him but wasn't that obvious like I'm looking for trouble but he honked me so honked him back just alil then he asked me to go a side.. so yeah i did it i mean if he wants trouble bring it on man.. I didn't want to make things worst.. but instead what he did was just stare and me.. as if he was going to do some crap =.= what retard..

Anyways dropped by at school.. met some of my schoolmates and here are some pictures I'd like to share with ya'll

How can a road be flooded like that? Just because of school and mosque. Isn't there anyone concern about these?
Those were the days.. Sigh.. Time flies. Missed being a secondary student!!! @_@
Boys doing drill =D
Hun doing her SOUP with my grandma a bit =D
SomeCat is gonna get a hurt realllllll bad xD
Isn't she cute?? =D

And so yeah. thats about it for friday... Stayed home with my girl making soup.. teacher her some of guitar songs. Of course every momment i spend with her is precious! So i do enjoy my every friday =D

Saturday

Today quite interesting... Went out to eat with mum... then after that we were back home so was discussing about whether should I take the car to BB because afraid would cost quite alot and all so my mum gave me money to refill the fuel tank of the car im going to use and guess what? when i was about to go out I found out the money was HILANG! OMGness.. searched everything and then I remembered mum asked me to throw some papers to the trashcan so i went to check and OMG it was in the trash! @_@ LOL how could i throw money away!??!?!?!?? ahhhH!!! xD

Reached YMCA and guess what again? I DIDN"T BRING MY LEATHER SHOE! im like SHYET! WHy now???? Lol~ then i had to borrow one of the boots thats really really really uncomfortable wei!!!!! @_@ so just did a normal parade thing and had some talk with some of the members about my problem and such lar... its P&C for now.. =D teehee...

After that during the evening time was at home then hun told me she is with sam at mid so i was thinking of going but i didn't have any transport so i said MAYBE i would turn up but she bought the ticket so i had to take bus there lor rushing then watch this korean movie thats quite ridiculous LOL then watched a bit of transformers was peeking at the side coz there were no empty seats!!! XD ahahahs was a cool night =D

june birthday BOYS??? xD
Cake Cutting =D
Don't it just looks disturbing?? =(

Just thought of putting this.. teehee... =D
Don't we want to have peaceful place? does this looks peaceful and so called "Truely Malaysia"?
Help Save Earth! Recycle! =) Do your part =D

Well, Thats all folks! Take care! =D

I've made my decision and it's hard for me to change right now =) But Thanks guys.. I appreciate you guys try to keep me in but i have to whats right for my future

2009-06-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

Weekend is here!!! oh yeah baby~~~~~ will be loads of things to post i hope? =D hahahahs..

Here are pictures of the day! Enjoy!!! =D

Dogzila? xD

Hamster swims?!!?!?

2009-06-24T22:42:00.005+08:00

So Far workin till 6pm not bad =O

Hang out with friends abit...

Get to come out help dad and mum wash up dishes.. ( owh yes.. first time today doing it )

Here are some pictures of the day.. Enjoy~ Sorry if they're kinda old which you might have seen it before in my other website. Working days so i wont bring my cam out.. =D

KenVai =D

Sis's SugarGlider @_@

The Mask! =D

Thanks for viewing again guys! =D will be posting longer ones when i start college and stop working for few days! =D

2009-06-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Picture of the day!? xD

2009-06-22T22:28:00.007+08:00

Another day passed by..

College is nearer..

Well today nothing much so I just want to keep it short and simple! so yeah. =D You all still can enjoy pictures though. Here are some of the latest pictures and enjoy =D

Do Si Wong? xD

Pool =D

Random Leaf

Sleeping Hamster
(Picture of the Day)

Still waiting for college to start! Must work hard and strive to be better! =D

No Worries, No Trouble, No Problem=)

Just Be Happy =D

2009-06-21T20:25:00.007+08:00

Hey everyone! I'm sorta back again! check out my new blogskin! She did it for me again =D so I don't wanna waste it just like that so I thought of starting again!

lemme see, Any updates.. Oh yes..

Working not more than 4 days currently..

Seeking for musicians! You think you have the potential joining a band come look for me! We "The1Revelation" opens to faithful and potential christian musicians. But of course you don't have to be a christian =) So no worries.

22 days to college. Audio Production (ICOM)

I got my new DSLR Canon 350D and will upload few pictures to share with everyone so no worries =)

Hmmm.. Things just didn't go that well for me recently.. Having some trouble with my health or mental. So I have to visit doctor at a Hospital! @_@ and yes I have phobia of needles! I won't be posting how I did and all coz its a waste of space here =)

So heres some past photos i had and enjoy =D Do comment

The Rubiks

The Fountain!

The Parrot!

Well, that's about it. For more pictures it is all at http://www.flickr.com/photos/blurryken24

Smiles! How many years do we have? Live it to the fullest =)

And A Happy Happy Fathers Day to all =) Hope you all celebrate well with your own families =)

2009-04-09T23:08:00.004+08:00

Hello guys! xD Nothing special today ahhh.. Lemme see.. Hmm... Oh yes.. Today one salesman came in with the massager machine. Ken bought it and then they kept fooling around with it. Bawi took it and put it on one side of his arm and ken was like faking it saying he didn't know how to use and didn't know how to start it BUT he actually switched it up to the max. Bawi was asking why isn't it moving or something? After that he on it then bawi's arm was like moving up and down as if it was getting shocked.. LMAO~ everyone's faces redish.. xD

After that nothing much happened.. just took some pictures.. =)

Isn't it quite a nice view? or NOT? @_@ xD hahas..

Trying to be my old kiddy kiddy self again.. Im still young!! =p

2009-04-08T22:41:00.011+08:00

Hey people! Well, nothing much to post la actually.. Was suppose to post yesterday but thanks to my stupid mouse!!! not working at all!!! made me so damn pissed off!!! @_@ arg~~~ But not until i throw things lar dont worry guys.. =P

Well im just gonna do it simple by putting some pictures and a video? xD Lets go!

Dum dum dum.. First.. Went to ICOM to check with the course wanted to take and registered myself in to the college but still waiting for the letter of approval! Omg!!?! Although the college is small, but it is full of music tallented people!!! I'm not even in their league!!! Everyone are like using their macbook Pro and start composing and such~ It will be my turn really soon.. =P xD

What do you think about my new nike force low shoe? awesome eh? It's not just what you think it is people! It glows in the dark!!! How cool is that?!?!? Want to know how much is it? come and ask from me xD

Happy family!!! Awesome!!! I finally have my whole set guitars!!!
My new Electric! Ain't telling you what brand.. =P xD Come see me play then you know! =D

My New Acoustic Santanu~ Awesome sound!!! hear it from me? xD hahas.. im so full of myself.. xD kidding la guys! just so excited that im blogging again.. xDAnd Yes of course my classical Yamaha! xD clap clap clap.. xD

Let's not forget my First electric guitar shall we? I'm selling this one tho guys.. rm250-300. Anyone interested? Do contact me =) Still in very good condition. Strings changed to earnie ball super slinky.

Can you believe these 2 people? WHo actually works at chambers! Yeah.. Its very very addictive video clip. xD Dont watch if you are under age.. lmao~ xD

There you go guys~ There goes my first official blog post! xD do come drop by some comments in my chatbox la~ I need some encouragement you know? xD

2009-04-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Things just could not go any better these days. There are so many things to think about..

Could not make my girl happy... Kept on disappointing her again and again...

Im so afraid to lose someone close to me AGAIN.. my grandmother.. Sigh.. She is getting old.. I cant bare to see another leaving so soon..

My studies aren't that good.. Parents had to keep argueing.. Kept on thinking ways to get me in to the college i want. Mum is going to use her money which she is not suppose to use until shes old and all.. I really don't know what to do. Should i continue study? or should i just give up studying and work to gain experience? =/

2009-03-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

Well well well... What can I post about the happenings previous days..... Hmmmmm BORING!!!!!

Lols...

Well all i know i spent my fridays and saturday to the fullest and very satisfied because I get to spend time with HER... =P Spending time with someone you love is the happiest moment am I right guys and girls.. ^^

Well the "sucky" part of these few days are like time passes soo so so slow.. Work is getting boring already.. xD and SPM results coming out really soon!!! Omg??? judgement day again!??!?! Lol!! u've got to be kiddin me! then 16th of march is my grade 5 theory exam and Im not fully ready yet!!! I'm still trying my best to memorize everything and well yeah almost everything during work as well because I know that if i come back home from work I'd just be lazy.. =P

Well i guess thats about it~ Haiya wait till i am on holiday first lar~ everyday nice post larh.. when I start college probably.. Because by then I would probably have my new 13 inch Alu Macbook!! woohoo!!! Ciaoz!

2009-02-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

Yikes! didn't kept my promise.. Sorry ya'll... Was really really really tired and stressed after work and everything. So yeah, kinda in a busy schedule here to keep up with. I'll just go a quick runthrough what I did during the days that I didn't update previously eh? =D And yeah, about things that I could remember okay guys? enough pressure? xD My bad guys..

Well, firstly i went to alor or something somewhere near where I work with my friend together for lunch and it was my first Myanmar food I've ever tried~ It was OKAY~ I wont say bad because I get to swallow it. xD

Hmm, lemme see here... Ah yes~ recently me and my friends whom are working together with me at chambers went overboard on creativity until it seems to be like we did not have anything else to do in the shop when there is no customers. We composed a song about chicken rice shop. Well, okay not WE but bawi did. He and his awkward ways to compose songs like these. I will post it up after we are done with the full version of the song. Currently just polishing up the song to make it more creative hopefull chicken rice shop will sponsor us some chicken rice? xD After chicken rice shop then we heading for Coke sponsor, Pepsi, etc... xD We are the Chambers Music Sdn Bhd band~ LOL~ kiddin me.. xD

Yeah I guess thats about it? xD my bad lah.. Lazy to post such a long one during working days.. especially having work the next day! c'mon! xD hahahas... still waiting for my macbook~~~ T^T I want my macbook so badly!!! couldn't afford it right now tho.. sigh~

Ciaoz...

2009-02-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone! Long time no blog! Yes, I know it has been quite awhile. Too Long!!!

But hey! I am back again to blog and will be on everyday IF i get to do it that is. Then i could not disappoint any blog readers of mine. Anyways, you can count on me this time keeping it updated!

I actually did not want to blog anymore until I get my macbook aluminium 13' and start blogging for real with pictures and everything. Anyways, I'm going to get all system going because of HER for decorating my whole blog making me a brand new someone =D weee~

Yes, i am so called enjoying my sweet 18 right now by experiencing with young adult life. Yes yes, It's not like sweet 16. Working is really though for me right now working as a part timer in chambers music. But as long as I am enjoying what I am doing It's all good people! Live your life to the fullest doing what you want! Heck why do you want to listen to others doing something you don't want to! If its computing you want, Do it! If it's Performing, DO IT!

Currently working at Chambers Music at Sungei Wang for about 1 month plus already while waiting for my Spm results to be out and my college intake by July this year. Waiting for my Macbook aluminium 13'. So eager to have it right now!!! Working at chambers ain't so bad actually as a part-timer. At least i have friends who are pros in Music! xD Very professional in electric guitar which they can teach me during free times. Hoping to jam with them like how they rawk it! xD There is Si fu Bawi that always wants me to pay him or treat him in some way only he'll teach me some skills. Rony that is fooling me around time to time but it's all good.xD Fei! my future studio partner dude! Auntie that i can always talk to~ Ken the assistant manager whom we can always kid about something. Zoe that is always so sweet. Stephanie whom had the same shirt as me.@_@. Angeline whom just started working as a new part timer~ hahas. Not to forget Grace too, someone whom i can always talk to when im in need. =)

Well, Im just gonna stop right now RIGHT NOW! xD

Will updated the next day guys! Mahalo~

2009-02-11T17:25:00.003+08:00

QI RUI WAS HERE!

LOL!

2008-11-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

sigh~~~~ so long din sms her.. felt the missing kinda feeling in me.. =/

Well, then i can say... She is coming back day after tomorrow!!! hehe~~

By then she can make it back up for me! for leaving me alone for so long!!!!

ahhhhh hurry back ahhh!!! =(

Miss ya sososososo much!!!

Back please!!! =(

2008-11-20T23:54:00.000+08:00

Day 2...

sigh~ dont even wanna count how many days left.. coz its even bigger than how many days had already passes... =/

hurry back please!!! =( sigh~ you promise you'll be here with me during my exams... =(

hurry back.. =/

2008-11-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

Well! i have 1 week of resting and a time to rest from SPM!!!!

SPM stress really getting up to my head!!! grr!! really crazy stuff! lols~

Sigh my lil adagio went for her camp~ =( 5 days 4 nights? so long! left me alone here having my exam!! you very geng hor you??!?! sobs =( dont choi u already then you know ah~ hmmp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what to do~ first day already lor~ wanna sms also cant phone kept by her teacher or something... Why must be like that huh? sobs~ sigh~ hope she'll be back really fast ahhh!!! sobs
then after SPm we got loads things to do =D xD hor hun? xD hahahah

But another thing is that i comfirmed that i can apple for ICOm already! CPM known as Certificate of Profesional Music! xD awesome isn't it? xD i know xD hahahahhahaha

HURRY BACK AHH ADAGIO!!!!!!

2008-10-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

What to do in the future? xD

2009 - ICOM ( international College of Music )
- Working in music shop
- Grade 5 theory and grade 7 practical piano
- Continue serving in 3rd Kuala Lumpur Company of Boys Brigade in Malaysia ( Primer)
- tryouts for Roland piano Competition? =/
- Form a band for life
- Perform in places ( piano )

Other than those really wanna try out so many other things!!!

-Music Business
- Studio
- Music School
- Song writer
- Music producer
- Own Album
- Band's Album

@_@ Yikes..

KenZter - The Passion for Music

2008-10-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hey guys~ sorry for the SO LONG never updated period.

Back again..

How many days for till SPM? don't wanna know but the fact is that its getting really closer and getting myself all fired up for it. Knowing i can't but still have to la.. A time where i have to be like staying in my room facing few stacks of books.. taking books out to study.. thinking of the books wherever i go... so yeah~ Well, the good part is that I don't have to study what I DON'T like anymore because im going college next year! Owh yeah~ ICOM =)

These days are really just so unimaginable because a person like me, Don't touch school books! =P
What to do.. Follow the law ma.. xD siens sia..

Today I went to Danau desa and looked for Victor at Life Symphony for a visit. Talked about my vocal classes im attending after spm.. so Yeah.. I'm going for that..( btw its not oprah type!) xD. So many things to do yet so lil time.. =/

Played piano there again, as usual self.. I always play something whenever im at a music shop or school or anything as long as i see musical instrument i TOUCH! yes! so don't let me get near to yours or else i might BREAK it.. =P ( kidding btw..)

What is it tomorrow? =/ Not going school anyways.. Going for english tuition.. meeting some of friends.. yam cha-ing..(duh..)

Peace out

Kenzter - The Passion for Music

2008-10-03T12:32:00.001+08:00

Where are you???='(

I miss you so much ='(

Wish that i could have gone along with you ='(

Coz my heart is breaking apart ='(

without your voice in through my ears='(

withour your messages coming in to my phone ='(

without your smile ='(

Please come back faster ='(

im starting to feel very uncomfortable s much ='(

I need you so badly right now ='(

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2008-09-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh~ killer... tomorrow is the first day of trials... help?? =/ *gulp*

Anyways.. here's today's Daily Bread

The Right Signal

It was a tragic mistake. On July 3, 1988, the guided-missile cruiser USS Vincennes shot down an Iranian airliner with 290 souls aboard. All were lost. The ship's captain mistakenly thought they were under attack by an F-14 Iranian fighter.

Public opinion polls showed that most Americans opposed paying compensation to the victim's families. The cruel treatment of American hostages in Iran was still fresh in many minds. But President Reagan approved compensation. Asked by reporters if such payment would send the wrong signal, he replied, "I don't ever find compassion a bad precedent."

The principle of revenge is so much simpler to practice. Yet compassion is Christ's way - a deep caring for the physical, emotional, and spiritual needs of the whole person. It reveals the heart of God for sinful people - for you and for me

The feeding of the 5,00 was a miracle born out of compassion. Jesus was moved by the physical and pisitual needs of the people (Matthew 14:14; Mark 6:34). He was not content just to teach them and then send them on their way.

As Christians, we must look at the whole person through the eyes of Jesus. Being moved by compassion always sens the right signal - Dennis De Haan

Give me a heart sympathetic and tender,
Jesus, like Thine, Jesus, like Thine;
Touched by the needs that are surging around me,
And filled with compassion divine. - Anon.

Compassion is love in action

When Jesus went out He saw a great multitude; and He was moved with compassion for them.
- Matthew 14:14

You're always in my mind =D Can't stop thinking about you~

2008-09-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

Enough is enough.. Tomorrow starting with chinese exam but thank God i'm not involved.. xD

I can't believe THAT would happen.. =/ I'm very disappointed you know that? =/

anyways.. just right.. looking at today's Daily Bread.. =)

Enjoy =')

Past, Present, & Future

In his painting " An Allegory of Prudence," 16th-centuryVenetian artist Titian portrayed Prudence as a man with three heads. One head was of a youth facing the future, another was of a mature man eyeing the present, and the third was of a wise old man gazing at the past. Over their heads Titian wrote a Latin phrase that means, "From the example of the past, the man of the present acts prudently so as not to imperil the future."

We need that knid of wisdom to overcome the anxiety created by our past failures and the fear of repeating them in the future - an anxiety that keeps us from living to the fullest now.

Paul was able to "forget" his past and anticipate his future (Philippians 3:13-14). This doesn't mean his memory was erased; it means that Paul was free of any fuilt or pride he may have felt from his past actions, because God had forgiven him. This attitude enabled him to live in the present and "press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus". So he had one driving passion- to know Christ better.

Let's rededicate ourselves to Christ. Jesus will enable us to live fullly in the present as we gain widsom from the past and face the future with courage. - Dennis De Haan

Standing at the portal
Of the opening year,
Words of comfort meet us,
Hushing every fear - Havergal

Never let a bleak past overshadow a bright future

=) God Bless =D

I'd never hide anything =)

2008-09-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

Well well well.. looks like SPM is getting really really close!!! hello? get up people and get going... =D hahaha... anyways.. Nothing much today? hmm yeah~ that explains all =D

Went through daily bread and here to share with all of you what is it about.. =D

Don't Make News!

A story in our local newspaper reported that a $1.73 billion highway and mass transit project in Denver, Colorado, was nearing completion on schedule and within the budget. But the story wasn't on the front page. In fact, it was tucked into a sidebar of brief summaries in small type on page 3 of the local news section. If the project had been plagued by fraud, delays, and cost overruns, no doubt it would have been headline news.

I've decided that "Don't Make News" might be a good motto in life. If we lie, cheat , and steal, that's news. If we live honestly and morally, we can have an unnoticed yet effective spiritual influence on people around us.

When Paul commended the Christians in Thessalonica for showing love toward each other, he urged them, "Aspire to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your own hands.. that you may walk properly toward those who are outside" ( 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12)

Since our goal is to please God in everything we do (v.1), it makes no difference whether anyone applauds our actions or not. We are called to be faithful, not famous. Bad behavior sells newspapers. Honesty and integrity honor the Lord. Don't make news! - David McCasland

I'd rather have Jesus than men's applause,
I'd rather be faithhful to His dear cause;
I'd rather have Jesus than worldwide fame,
I'd rather be true to His holy name. - Miller

The world's applause cannot compare to the Lord's approval.

You should abound more and more, just as you received from us how you ought to walk and to please God - Thessalonians 4:1

Speak and Do

2008-09-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

In ancient Greek dramas, a person behind a curtain spoke the lines while the performer on stage acted out the role. We might refer to the speaker behind the scenes as one who didn't "practice what he preached"

This person behind the curtain reminds me of a problem we as Christians experience today. Many of us are skilled at sounding religious, but we don't put our words into action. This is hypocrisy.

When there is a discrepancy between what we say and what we do, we create confusion in the minds of our "audience." That's why many nonbelievers do not take the gospel message seriously.

A Christian who makes the greatest impact on a watching world, and who furthers the cause of Christ, is one whose actions harmonize with his words. When James spoke of the "wisdom that is from above," he describe it as "pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy" (James 3:17).

Our role as Christians is vastly different from the ancient Greek actors. They had speakers who didn't do, and doers who didn't speak. We are to be people who speak and do the truth.

You're writing a "gospel," a chapter each day,
By the deeds that you do, by the worsd that you say;
Men read what you write, whether faithless or true-
Say, what is the "gospel" according to you? - Gilbert

When words and actions agree,
the message is loud and clear

Taken from the Daily Bread

2008-09-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

My Kinder Bueno

Your name gives me a special thought in my head
How special can it be?
as special as i can just see or think about things i like

Seeing My favorite chocolate Kinder Bueno
makes me think of you
makes me wanting to be with you right now

I just want to treasure each and every moment.
Every moment we have together,
It can never be erased.
I would put it into my most secretive place
My Heart as my Dairy =D

2008-09-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

Will you be my Chocolate?

Chocolate packets has many colours
Chocolate has two special colours
Black and White

When Black meets White
They're irresistable to each other
Chocolate comes with extra taste
Orange, Strawberry, and more to taste

BUT

As long as they're chocolate and no matter how are they mixed
They still have the same Sweet taste
that gives Everyone a happy feeling inside Thats not a waste

I gave a packet of chocolate to someone special
special enough that i am wiling to give everyday
Just because i want to her that person everyday
Just because I want to spend my every second with that someone Everyday

Will you be my Chocolate?
I will treasure you in my heart
I will never let anyone take you away from me
I will not eat you even if im dying

I can't imagine a day without my Chocolate
Chocolate Oh Chocolate Please be mine
Mine to hold forever
Mine to share forever
Mine to Love forever and Ever

2008-08-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

I could not sleep last night..

I kept thinking.. What have i done wrong?

I sat on my bed just kept wondering.. could it be this? could be it that? i don't know...

Dear.. I just hope after i blog this time.. You can understand what I really mean.. But dear.. I'm not putting it in the bad way.. I just want to let you know how I felt last night.. You know that no matter what I'd still love you the same way you do to me too =)

Remember the paper thing? Yeah I think you got what i mean.. I'm really glad you do too darling..

Last night I called Her.. Just because of some small lil issue I just had to keep bugging on.. Should be my problem.. But definitely I can't say what is it about right out.. She'll kill me.. =P
But there's also this badminton thinggy.. I kept saying i support her letting her play.. But i always mess her day up by going down and just shower her my face.. I hate myself doing that so much.... I really just kept my mind focus on.. " I can't let you get hurt, I can't affort to let anyone harm you" That thought made me such a bad person to her.. I don't want to but It's that hard to control that everytime I really had to keep an eye on her just to make sure she's alright..

During that night..

I went a lil wacky.. I became 2 person at once... Lets just put it A and B kay? easier..

A : Why are you being so stupid? she always get so fed up all of a sudden just because problems come... don't you think so?

B(Me) : No.. It's alright! i don't want to leave her side even if it kills me! Even if she is fed up in these problems.. I would still try to cool her down and slowly talk about it!

A : Fine.. then are you happy with what is she doing right now? she rather do other things than spending time with you.. Doesn't it sound wrong? You're her Boyfriend..

B : *Fed up* SO??? Yes I am indeed her boyfriend! It makes me really happy enough to be someone that close in her heart! I showed her that nothing can replace her in my heart! doesn't mean she can't do it any sooner or later! She will slowly learn..! Still! I'm NOT BLAMING HER!

A : You're really going crazy.. are you even listening to what you're saying??? Then what about her friends huh? she rather stay with her friends.. or walk with them than you.. She always ask you to go find your friends... or go somewhere else rather to be with her whenever you want to! and you know it!

B : She have to have time for her friends too! YES, I'm her boyfriend and she said im her everything and no matter what I'm most important to her! She'll show me in her own ways! Even if i had no time anymore.. I'm still satisfied... That I've found Her in my life.. being with her and forever will be in her heart.. Yes i really want her to be someone special to me and me special to her.. I wish she would say.. It's okay.. my friends they can be with themselves.. I just want to be with you.. I wish she would say.. Don't argue with me lar.. I wanna be with you only ahhhhhhhh dum dum piggy!!!

A : You're crazy you know that? Do you?? Are you willing to cry everytime just to make her feel happy? are you willing to cry every single night??

B : Let me tell you.. Yes I will.. Because of every tear i drop because of Her.. It's worth it! I Cry because i feel her.. She cry because she felt me.. Tears that drop gives us a memory that we've been through these situations.. If you ask me that.. Yes im willing to cry every single night and its still worth it.. Just because its for Her...

Darling.. I can never blame you for anything because we are still learning.. Learning how to be with together.. How to understand each other more in any different ways we have.. I can never get angry at you even if I want to.. Just because of your sweet smile you put on just to let me see and make me day so much brighter.. =) This smile that you gave me and put on me too.. I'd never stop showing in my heart.. Even if my heart is filled with sorrow.. There is still a small space in it leaving for that smile of yours in me.. =) It keeps me alive..

Dear.. I really hope after you read this whole blog.. You understand how i really feel.. I don't and i really mean it I don't want you to blame yourself so hard because of making me sad many times.. It's alright.. We learn.. We cheer each other up.. Don't get fed up solving problems.. We can do all things together remember? Just A smile? remember? =)

I never hide anything from you thats why im telling you everything right here right now.. Just don't want you to blame hard on yourself anymore kay? everything we did wrong.. It's either me or you cheer each other back up again.. =) That's what we're all about..

I'm really worried that if i left school.. What will happen..? Im scared that you being a prefect.. When you're on your duty.. Those naughty boys would disturb you.. they would do anything and all.. and I CANT BE THERE TO PROTECT YOU! I wish that i can come back form 6 at least spending 2 more years being there with you~ I don't care if it's wasting 2 years of my time.. But being with you? It's worth it no matter what..

But i can promise you this is that.. No one can replace you in my heart... Except teddy.. =P just abit lar.. dun sad sad la kay? xD But no one else anymore...

I too can promise.. If anything happen in school.. PLEASE call me.. I will be there ASAP.. I won't let anyone hurt you.. I won't let anything hurt you.. I Won't let anything or anyone disturb our relationship!!!!

I know you're very loyal to me too darling.. That is why i trust you with all my heart saying all these to you right now.. I'm just afraid we didn't spend much time together anymore.. =( Thats when the part my heart would feel so much of sorrow inside..

I can't spend a day without you're smile... Picture doesn't work much.. Hearing your voice yes.. =) I will call you everynight =)
Weekends I'll call you during the night we talk till 5 in the morning! =) remember that us? =)

Darling I love you.. and theres nothing or no one in the whole world can make me change my mind my heart my soul my everything to stop loving you every single day.. Smile for me kay? Promise me don't blame hard ady la silly piggy.. silly pig de.. simply think until make yourself sad sad for wad wor? you cheer me up then i for sure would be happy ady wan wad.. =) Mwuackxzx

I love you so much Yap Qi Rui.. I don't want to be just a Prince in your heart.. But Your King.. Your Husband.. Your everything =) And I.. haha.. I want you to be ALL MINE ONLY!!! =)

Hope this hols what we dreamt of would happen.. =) mwuackxzxz.. 14/8

Baby, You're irreplacable Now and Forever <3

2008-08-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Tagged By my PrinCess

1. The last person who tagged you is?
- HER

2. What relationship with you and him/her?
- My baby princess and Wife to be.. =P

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her
- She's Sweet, Shes Kind, Shes Forgiving, Shes Humble, Shes Gorgeous, Shes Pretty, Shes Wonderful, Shes Beautiful.. oops? did i go over 5? coz theres too many!!! =P

4. The most memorable thing she/he has done for you
- The Book of US~ =D

5. The most memorable word that he/she said to you
- I love you with all my heart and You're MINE only!!! =3

6. if she/he becomes your lover, you will...
- Love her for eternity and never let her go! =D

7. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will...
- Be dead.. and theres 110% she wont be.. =P

8. If she/he becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..
- STOP BEING LAZY PIG! =P *shes gonna smack me* =P

9. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is..
- probably she would in her bad mood.. xD and surely it wont happen lar~ silly.. =P

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is..
Love her, make her happy every single day... Being ONLY Hers.. =P

11. The overall impression to him/her is?
SHES PERFECT!!!

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
I dont know.. its kinda random actually =P but i know She thinks im perfect too =P

13. The character of yourself is?
Lazy too i guess.. affected By HER lor.. =P

14. For the person who cares you and likes you, say something to them
I Love you Baby~ and No one or anything can separate us !!! Thanks For EVERYTHING TOO BABY!!!

15. Ten people you tag :
1. Sillypiggy
2.LazypigGy
3.SweetPiggY
4.ForgivingPigGy
5.PerfectPigGy
6. SleepyPIGgy
7.BabiPig?
8.DumdumPigGy
9. LoveLyPiGgY
10.PiGgyPrinCess

16. Who is the number 2 having relationship with?(LazyPiggy)
- ME!!! My Baby Princess!!! =D

17. Is number 3 a Male or a Female ?(SweetPiggy)
- Girl lor~ Sweet one summore =P

18. If number 3 and number 10 together will it be a good thing?( SweetPiggy & PiggyPrincess)?
PERFECT LOR LIKE THAT!!!!! xD

19. How about 5 and 8? (PerfectPiggy & DumdumPiggy)
Well... hmmm since already perfect.. then suddenly dumdum... don't know leh~ =P

20. What is number 1 studying about?
ask her lor~ normal subjects.. but lazy to study de lar her.. =P

21. When was the last time you chat with them?

1. Sillypiggy - Still chatting
2.LazypigGy - Still talking
3.SweetPiggY - Still thinking of her
4.ForgivingPigGy - Still dreaming o fher
5.PerfectPigGy - Still missing her
6. SleepyPIGgy - Still Loving her
7.BabiPig? - Still wondering about her
8.DumdumPigGy - Still caring for her
9. LoveLyPiGgY - Still being with her
10.PiGgyPrinCess - Still being her Prince!!! =P

22. Is number 4 a single? ( ForgivingPiggy)
- Ofcoz no lar! SHES MINE AND MINE ONLY! YOU ALL GET AWAY!!! =D

23. Talk something about number 2
- Shes still my babi no matter how lazy she is!!! MINE!!!
LOVE HER LOTS AND FOREVER MINE!!! ONLY!!!! GO AWAY!!!

Phew..

End.. =P

Baby You're Irreplacable and Mine To Have Only!!! =3

2008-08-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Here are the rules :

A) List these rules in your blog

B) Share 7 facts about yourself in your blog

C) Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs

1 . I Love HER~ Shes my baby, my All, My Everything, My Life, Whatever there is to think of me its all about HER.. XD

2. I'm Crazy for Music

3. I Love HER again... =D

4. I'm Short...? =( Wishes to be just a lil more taller.. =P

5. Love HER again!!! =P

6. Want to just live a life filled with Music enthusiasm

7. I LOVE HER AND NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT!!! =D

I Tag You :
1. YAP Qi Rui!!!
2. Yap Piggy!!!
3. YaO Qi Lei!!!
4. BluRryRui!!!
5. Yewhon'S Rui!!
6. Hon's Baby~
7. SweetBluRryBabi~ =P

You're MINE and MINE only Baby!!! =D

2008-07-20T18:10:00.000+08:00

Today... indescribable day!!! xD

In the morning actually kinda started a lil small argue with Her.. well.. what to do? its our hobby~ BUT thats her idea.. not MINE.. xD smack her later..xD

Took my piano with me to go coz it is IU day!! xD or should i say Night? xD
It was suppose to be a surprise for her but i blew it up somehow.. xD

So when i reached there she was there already.. sat next to her then was with her the whole time.. sad lar also.. becoz of something... After the footdrill competition..
unfortunately.. BB got 3rd.. PBSM.. im down too that they din get rather than those OTHERS.. so.. yeah.. =(

After that it was afternoon already and i kinda pulled one of my friend with me for lunch just after he got out from the car and about to go in to the school.. xD
So after lunch we got back to school.. I went for piano practice with Rizuan.. but in the end he kinda left me alone!!! arg.. Lolz.. what lar wei... make me even more afraid!! xD

Kinda like played all day long until the last min lar~ i was like.. crap~ didn't practice much~ shyyyyyyyyyyyeeeett...xD all i did think was.. what to do? what to do?? Lol~.. well what can i do? i still have to do it~ =P

So it was then.. she was there already she called me.. All i can see is just HER.. She is so beautiful that night.. we took only one picture lar~ hmmp! take so many.. only kept one! smack you ah!

So then it was starting... First of all definately speeches lar~ what to do.. school ma.. and another crappy thing is that teachers wont give it a rest lar wei~ " we still need to apply school rules coz this is a school" and the other newbie teacher shouted saying " Quiet.. just think its an assembly" im like..what the heck?? this is a party lar... dont spoil our mood lar you people.. you people are old and cant have any fun like us doesn't mean you have to ruin it for us lar please...

We enjoyed the party tho.. xD hahaha.. Well it was first 2 performance which i can't remember what is it already... Lolz~~ Then after that they called for the next performer.. which is me.. i was kinda dreaming and worrying that i played wrong having mistakes.. WHICH i did.. OMG wei...

So the surprise WASN'T ruined YET.. it was that i have a lil talk.. xD hahah.. It was about HER~ xD She told me people were like looking at her.. xD hahaha.. but then lucky lor you hor?? xD So i played... lolz~ mistakes~ pai seh leh~ xD hahaha... but people claped and such lar~ wooohoo~ my first performance... and its for HER and HER only actually =P HOHOHO so bad.. xD

So after that i went out~ was like sweating all the way~ lolz~ people were like looking at me with those stare.. im like.. crap.. hurry walk to my seat and sit lar!! lolz~...

As the performance and everything goes on.. she hugged my arm.. aww... first time shes being sooo sweet holding my arm.. BUT it doesn't mean last time shes not sweet.. Shes ALWAYS that SWEET.. =P Thats what i love about her too!! mwuackxzx...

So i grab her hands and hold tight lar~ and we took ONE picture.. ONE only ahhH! knock you ahh!!! Whole night we were holding each other and being the sweetest couple there is like that... xD hahaha.. Won't ever forget this night...

After the party was finished.. i went to pack up my piano and my bag lar.. then my mom came when i wanted to walk with her.. everything was in the car already so we went for a lil walk~ and SOMETHING happened.. xD it was our First K*** and she got so shuang about me hugging her so warm.. haha.. silly girl... then we walk to the car and i send her back to her house~ *next time i would give her a surprise at her house too* shhhhh xD hahaha..

Ohh.. and when we're in the car.. i'd still hold her hands too.. xD its like our hands can't be seperated or something.. MWuahahaha..

It was a night that shall not be erased in our minds and our hearts.. =3

I Love you sooo much baby~ and i Wont let you go even if it takes my life away...
Forever.. =3

BabyHon Loves BabyRui FOREVER =D

Hon=3=Rui

19th of July 2008.. A Memoriable Night

2008-07-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

Happy 1St YeaR Anniversary!!!

Happy 1st Year Anniversary darling!!!

can you believe it? just a blink of eye and its already one year we've been together And.. known each other.. =D

You never thought we would be together forever

in the middle i didn't think we would be hanging on anymore...

But whats this?

We're together 1 year already leh!!!

Can You believe it? i know i can =) And I'd still would hold your hands for as long as i live..

What i wanted to tell you..

1. I Love you so much.. as much love as for my family and God..
2. I really want to hold you in my arms every night..
3. I can't wait to see you again and again and again..
4. I can't wait till the day we're elder and we're so much better together...
5. Then would give you the ring once more.. " Will you marry me?"
6. I wanna hug teddy and you together with me when I'm home..
7. I can never live without you by my side
8. I can never stand up again if i fall by just losing you
9. I will do my best.. stand strong for our future..
10. I would do anything i can to make you the happiest Girlfriend and my soon to be wife really long soon.. xD

Today we didn't even argue.. and we will never argue again.. coz there's no need of that anymore.. We trust each other with all our hearts.. theres no question how much we love each other now and forever.. =)

Things i gave her ( for now )...Still got 3 more things.. in my house..xD
1. anniversary card that says its to my Wife.. =)
2. and of course.. A ring of promise from me to her.. I'd stay with you for as long as my spirit is here.. =) even if I'm.... u know.... =D

Baby I love ya so much!!!

Don't see leng zai ah! knock you!!

smack your butt oso!!! hmmmp! the other smack mine haven't smack you yet.. so naughty ady~ hmmp~

Mwuackxzx~

ME LOVE YAP QI RUI SOOOOO MUCHIE!!!!! <3 forever <3

2008-06-06T01:20:00.000+08:00

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
She will never betray me and i Know it =) <3

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Having Her being with me Forever.. and i mean Forever~ =)

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
It'll be the BEST!!! xD

4. are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
No not really..=3

5. what's your ideal lover like?
She's Enough~ =)

6. which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone?
I want Both!!! xD~ weee~

7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
For as Long as i Live.. and Depends if the person doesn't change? =/

8. if the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
yeah~ attached to ME alright.. =) xD

9. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yeah~ schools starting...

Why 10 Missing?!?!?! Lol xD

11. is being tagged fun?
er... emm... ehh..... umm........ depends?

12. how do you see yourself in ten years time?
Holy crap? working?? Living the music life? Being with her.. just that im older?!?! MUCH OLDER!??! I DUN WANNA BE 27!!!!!

13. who are currently the most important people to you?
Her~ Family~ SOME friends.. =D

14. what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
What kind? Shes Everything.. thats what kind.. =3 Love her Loads!!!

15. would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Married but poor~ Coz money can't buy her back... ='(

16. what's the first thing you do every morning?
What she said lor~~~Wake up lu~~~

17. would you give all in relationship?
YESH!!! Everything!!!

18. if you fall in love wit two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Her!!!! Becoz she said " You're only Mine.. and all Mine only!!!" xD

19. what type of friends do you like?
Friends who talk? friends who are friends? true friends? good friends? best friends? Any friends that are good? Friends friends? =)

20. what type of friends do you dislike?
i have no FRIENDS i dislike~ probably those who take drugs and smoke being a jackass of himself.. especially.. telling me how to live my life.. you don't know me.. don't tell me how to live my life dude..

Tagged by: My Sweetest Sweet sweeet sweeeeeeeeet sweeeeeeeeet Baby Mommy Princess~~~

2008-05-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

They say... do not get involve in love when ur still schooling..

They say.. it'll affect ur studies...

They say.. Will affect ur feeling towards anything else

And...

I didn't care and go for it..

and there i have it.. what i get for not listening.. but its not a regret..
coz i know things i do.. i can't regret..

I know~ i have to be 2nd..

I know.. nothing is perfect..

I know.. Nothing should be expected..

I know... i shouldn't hope so much..

I know.. I shouldn't think so much..

I know.. i should just get on with my life..

Live, and erm.. don't know.. refer to the top.. and Die?

Some people are lucky.. Everyone is lucky.. but in different ways..

im lucky coz i have her.. =)

I can't be first..

I can't be the most and seriously the msot important..

and bla bla bla...

and who am i to think like that?

it sounds like a girl side..

Am i suppose to just act cool with it?

heart stoned..

2008-05-23T12:10:00.000+08:00

am i hanging to this just for the sake of it?

Im feeling im being left out being at the back..

distance between us so far.. i couldn't catch up coz my heart is aching so badly..

yet too.. you didn't slow down to be with me =(

im tired of watching you walk away.. tired of watching ur back facing at me..

tired of being someone just in need in some times..

i sat next to her. i told her.. she got fed up.. end up i said it was my fault~ i shouldn't say all these.. am i being stupid?

im putting every single blame on myself also can.. coz it doesn't matter so much anymore..

ppl say im stupid.. im dumb.. i couldn't feel..

im tired of being just someone in need in just sometimes..

my heart is stoned this time... i don't know if this is worst or the other.. previously was numb.. now its stoned.. stoned.. stoned..

=)

i'd break every single rule just to be with you.. i'd jump off the building just to be down with you right away.. i'd kill myself if i ever hurt you...

its not enough? to show how much you mean to me? not enuf to show how a bf is?

=/ i could fake everything.. just couldn't bare to fake a smile anymore..

im sorry?

Salt Power concErt!!!! xD

2008-05-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

What can i say? awesome~~~~

Went there... Wen was there... long time din see her since the last concert... anyways good to be back with her talking lar... =0

It was totally awesome!!! nothign else to explain...

Lolz from start awesome till the end! Lolz.. wen pulled me out to jump with the other gang! it was totally SWEET wei! everyone jumped like mad!!! then i have no idea how am i the leader of the chain.. started a chain running the place... xD get back and jump more.. xD

the end of the concert nothing much.. talked awhile.. look for salt power ppl to talk abit too.. then played the piano there... xD sweet grandpiano.. nice nice..xD

Salt Power! xD

Mr. Yee!! you rock man!!
Pianist~ xD

SALT POWER

There goes me and piano

Love Found

Never Let you go - Janice

2008-05-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

The rain, just never seems to bring

the joy I feel the same.

Everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can’t seem to learn to part

the hold you left your mark

all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath

part of me was dying

there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling

I would sing to you and tell you

I won’t live my life without you

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling

I would hold your hand and look in your eyes

and you know I’d never let you go

The way you left me on the train

I don’t know what to say

I remember everything that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance

I just need one more chance

to share the sunset our one last romance

2008-05-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

There is so many things that can describe how much Love that i've gave...

You made me gave so much.. so much of love.. to the max i could give..

But just because?

I can't stop looking at you, wanting to look into your eyes
I can't stop thinking about you, wanting to know what are you doing
I can't stop doing something that has to do with you
I can't stop worrying about you
I can't stop getting distracted by you
I can't stop dreaming about us
I can't stop giving hopes for ourselves

I can be stopped doing all these..
How? unless if i don't have a brain anymore
But no matter what,
No matter what at all..
Nothing can stop this..
that is me loving you every single sec
How to be stopped?
thats a funny question.. coz my heart is not with me
It has always been with HER
letting her keep with care..

I don't care what others will say.. I wanna show the world that both of us exist being together in this world... in our world..
I'm always ready to be that special someone in your life.. and i know you are to me so much..
I want to stand by your side

You've always say even if we don't see each other often.. Our hearts does.. Yes always, but its not full yet until we're really together..
I'll show you i can be the best.. at least in our world.. in Your Heart..

*She is always in my heart, My Heart belongs to Her*

2008-05-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

Well, things have been changing in life really.. Friends telling me they have been changing.. and stuff like that.
Everyone does change. I'm not suprise if anyone changes though.. =)

Aermm.. What else? So yeah~ say bye bye to Curriculum FootDrill Competition.. I'm being voted kicked out being as a commander. But im not suprise.. i SHOULD be kicked out. Knowing im not in a stable condition being in that post.

Theres some things that has to be cencored so sorry ya guys.. can't blog in here.. =)

Prefect camp? hmmm
What to say about prefect camp.. Aiks.. I went home the first day.. was sick of myself.. But thats not the point of why i went home. But the next day which is the last day.. My friend accompanied me to the campsite one more time. Shes the one driving tho..xD ah anyways.. went there just so i could see her and say sorry for what i've done the previous day just leaving here there hurt... =/ Im sorry baby.. I'm so sorry i've hurt you so bad leaving you alone when you needed me..

After seeing her i actually asked my friend to accompany me to look for "Secret Recipe" to buy "Blueberrycheesecake" for her.. she said everyone was jealous.. xD As always.. anything for her.. =) That cake is mine and hers Fav..

After that not much lar~ My music manage to skip grades so im heading for grade 5 theory and grade 6 practical next year ABRSM... *cross fingers* definately hope i pass with a distiction.. Coz needing it for college.. btw studying at ICOM =)

I just finished my L licence.. getting it the following friday if everything goes well and getting P the next 2 weeks HOPEFULLY.. =) so yeah~ wait itll i can drive.. and yeah.. lost to SOMEONE in a bet.. damn it.. xD Lucky you... =)

But not to forget too.. Grace.. Someone being beside me when i need someone to talk to.. My bestie Jie!!! xD hahah thats what she says she wants lar.. =) Im her lil bro~ happy having a nice SIS! lolz.. xD

Lost

2008-05-04T20:33:00.001+08:00

Hmmm..
Wow.. seriously no idea where to start again this blog here.. =D
But anyways i'll start a whole new bloggie again everyone.. =)
keeping this updated..

SHES BACK!!! xD

2008-03-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yes!!! finaly she is back~~~~~

Waited 4 days its like waiting for 4 years!!!!

T_T

But when she came back we argue.. but its okay again now.. every problem have aways to solve.. =) by solving together.. =)

I'm just so so so so happy that she came back~~ you guys wont wanna see how my face look like.. its like numb.. just that my face is stuck to smilling so big kind of smile.. xD

weeee~~~

getting hyper~~~ hehe calling her later.. xD

Finaly~~ no more~~~ weeeeeee~~~

and Im cured btw.. =)

*His HEaRt BelOngS To HER Forever*
For Because she is My Wife.. xD

2008-03-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

Missing Her when She is in camp Day 3

Today was really a sick day for me.. i was having a real high fever last night.. i ate some kind of medicine so thought it would help me alittle because tomorrow i still have exam.. But.. No.. It just got worst.. I finish my exam i asked my mum to pick me up from school already.. Went back home to try again that medicine.. then slept.. After i woke up i feel quite fine already.. But, all of a sudden it came back to me again soso so dam pain! my whole body hurts.. i got sore throat.. High fever... No energy... sigh..

Until i really couldn't take it around the time of evening like that.. So i went to see doctor.. i just thought doctor would just give me normally a jab? aikz.. He said.. 2 things that could be happening to me.. it is either just a high fever that will recover soon... or.. Denggi.. * Opened Big Eys* i was like woot?

The doctor said its not comfirm until my fever keeps going on till friday and if yes i have to do blood test already and things will just keep going worst and wost....

But Thank God and thanks to HER.. xD Well, it got better.. i feel much more better actually.. i remember i told her about this then she was really really so worried until no mood.. but i keep telling her lots of things saying this is not going to happen and don't worry so much.. =)This was at night..

Then we talked on the phone for about half and hour? and another half again later so 1 hour.. yeah.. lolz.. she was so sleepy.. and its probably my fault kinda keep calling her again.. sigh.. really miss her so much le.... =/ But Hey Shes Coming Back Tomorrow!!! YESH!!!!

But she said there will be another camp like this next year.. so i was really not that happy.. she said dont know if she wants to go.. because this year she said maybe going.. then she did go.. so makes me thing if its dont know yet it would be yes again.. and it would be like this again.. =( This is like so screw up.. no schedule.. trainers were late! foods are the same malay things... zzz.. They won't have enough sleep too!!!! what kind of camp is this?!? Sigh i really support her le.. but just knowing this camp is like this.. i really duno how to support so much le.. sorry dear.. =(

*HiS HeaRt BelONgs To Her ONLY*

Missing HER when She is in Camp Day 4

YESH!!! She is coming back today!!!! I feel much more better today! lucky it wasn't really denggi after all!!! happy or not dear? xD told you nothing will happen to me de la.. i Will take care of you de ma.. i sick then how to take care of you? xD

For now im just waiting for her to come back~~~ Can't Wait!!!!! T_T

*His HeaRT BelOngs To HER For EterNity*

Missing Her When She is in Camp DAY 2

2008-03-25T23:42:00.001+08:00

Morning.. it was just a normal morning.. nothing to say about today's activity.. coz theres nothing..

My ekonomi asas is a real killer... 3 questions i have to do 1 or 2 questions part of it i didn't study..kinda studied the wrong part.. waste.. =/

After school it was raining really heavy.. But i ran and grab a cab too.. whole body very wet.. went home just changed then hurried msg her and i got to talk to her on the phone for about 5 mins? Better than nothing rite?

Until now.. I got a high fever.. =/ Sigh.. wish she was here.. feel really uncomfortable right now.. but i wanna wait for her to msg me.. I want to call her and talk to her for awhile.. I really miss her so so so much~~~ Couln't get to see her in school today.. so is tomorrow and probably day after tomorrow too.. =/

The camp was real lame.. she had to wake up by 3 45 in the morning? just to get ready? but in the end the trainers were late.. WOOT? SO CALLED Trainers... No qualification trainers i assume..

So was kinda worried that she doesn't have enough rest.. Worried for the whole day.. Kept thinking of her if shes okay or not and stuff..

well today they ate curry again.. Shes sick of it so went to get some other food.. lolz.. silly girl.. next time i cook for u to eat la ok? no curry.. xD ok? =) mwuackxzx..

Just 1 more day.. 1 more day.. Then she'll be back home.. i can't wait!!! hurry back dear.. miss you really really so much!!!

Can you come back right now??? T_T

Really miss you so so much dear..

-*His HeArT BelOngs to HER* -

8.3.1

8 letters..

3 words..

1 meaning..

"I LOVE YOU"~

I MISS YOU~

I WANT YOU~

I NEED YOU~

Missing Her When Shes In Camp DAY 1

2008-03-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

This morning i woke up and just so lucky that when i woke up she msged me already.. then i called her awhile.. we talked only just awhile because she has to get ready to go soon already.. sigh.. so fast.. then i slept then i woke up it was 7 10? she still haven't told me she finished getting ready so i called her and stuff.. she didn't pick up and all.. until she reached the place she msged me saying shes fine and stuff like that.. >< so worried at start.. sigh..

we smsed quite a few times today being her First day of the camp for her.. I Missed her so so so much that i couldn't describe how much can it be explained to others... sigh..

She is fine in the camp right now.. Sms-ing with her while blogging right now.. She complaint about the foods there.. silly piggy.. theres only curry to eat like that.. its like in jail or something.. lolz.. curry fish, vege and stuff like that.. hope it will be still ok like that le..

jsut 3 more days to go.. then she'll come back.. i really miss her so so much.. i cant stop thinking of her..

tomorrow I'm having my ekonomi asas paper 2 exam.. studying too.. but just seem to keep thinking of her.. T_T really cant stop thinking if shes ok.. even though if i know she is... i just keep wanting the time to pass real fast... 3 more days.. i just want to see her again~~~~~~ couldn't see her for the next 3 days.. T_T

Dear.. today is just day 1.. and Im missing you like i've lost something for like so long like that.. T_T i dunno how is it going to be like for the next 3 days until you come back.. T_T

I really wished that you didn't go to that camp.. T_T but still in another way im supporting HER to go for the camp that is because she wants to go.. =)

Hope time passes quickly!!!! Please!!!

*His HearT beloNgs To HeR ForEveR*

MISSING HER SO MUCH!!!!

AHHH!!!!

2008-03-23T08:29:00.000+08:00

Waking up early.. waiting for her to come back.. Because she went to temple in the morning

Sorry dear.. didn't know you're going there today.. if not i would have said lets sleep together earlier.. T_T nvm.. lucky u automatic fell asleep first.. haha.. =)

well.. i have nothing much to say.. But only

She is going to the camp tomorrow.. ='( But i promise her i'll be fine.. So i can concentrate on my exams too.. Not to always worried so much every single time when she is in camp..

I really really wish i could know everything that is going on with her in camp.. I'm really worried something would happen if shes not enough rest or something else..

All i can do is pray that things would go on great and very fast... T_T 4 days camp.. I'm really going to miss you dear..

Yesterday i wanted to hug her before i leave to ymca with my boys.. but scared she would mind friends seeing.. i really thought today can at least go out awhile with her.. for drink or something.. or a walk at the park.. I really want to hug her before she leaves.. When i hug her i don't want to let go at all..

I'll try my best dear.. =) u have fun in camp ok?

*HisHeArtBeLonGstoHER*

2008-03-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

Today was definately very tiring day.. After all this and that..

She went to look for him... i just stand walking here and there.. hoping she'll come back fast.. I just feel alittle weird.. i don't know.. please don't ask me how it feels..

After that they said i have to go for Band later.. I didn't go..

I was supporting Her in her competition..

After that, so smart of me.. Not bringging down my wallet.. she had to use hers.. so i was like holding her purse.. went to buy drink.. shared with her 100 plus.. that would have been sweeter eh?

She wanted to go back up and wash her legs and shoe.. she didn't want me to accompany she says she will ask the other friend to.. seeing her come down.. with yes.. one of her friends.. then him at the back.. then she was sitting with them... becoz when i saw her come down i thought shes walking back to me d.. but not saying i dun like it..i felt like a jerk not letting her like that.. or something..

Then after that we walked and stand together for the rest of the days..

talk alot.. continue drinking that 100 plus.. then play with phone alittle lor.. ><

We really talked alot this time.. xD today counted as one of the best day being with her~~
and guess what date is it? 22nd again.. It's like every 22nd of a month we will be together.. xD But we are together every single day wad~ xD

I really really didn't want to end this day.. I never want to end any days being together with her..

One funny thing.. those bb boys so smart until they look for the teacher.. then teacher asked me to come.. then she said.. " u like that la? care about girlfriend ur bB boys dun care already la?" then i just smiled.. xD lolz... those boys ah.. cannot tahan them d..

after that.. went for BB and stuff just dun feel good.. so uncomfortable..

She is going the camp the day after tomorrow already.. aih~ please.. i really dun wan to end these 2 days for now.. i dun wan to.. ='(
She said the camp changed to 4 days only..

I just dun feel comfortable anymore.. my heart aching so badly.. i really want to know what happens.. will she be alright? enough sleep? enough rest? things like that.. im really really so crazy about it.. ><><

Thats it.. bye..

-*HisHeaRtBelOngsToHER*-

2008-03-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today.. Seeing her came to school.. walking with one of her friends small little kid. I know its nothing..and funny thing is he always follows her or something..

I saw her like.. keep on talking with a boy.. seeing her doing that.. i know shes doing something either helping him or asking him for help.. Using this kind of thinking it does help me not to think like last time.. I was thinking during my exam, what if i were to be like last time? what will happen later..? I would just go down say why are you talking with him? u know im not that happy? i dun like that.. ( being stupidly emo ) again..
Yes.. still actually im not that happy.. but not like last that kind.. just different.. I can't be so selfish!! i hate myself like that!! I hate that old me!!!

After School's Sports day rehersal.. she looks so tired~ i gave her the cold water that i bought before i went back down to look for her.. i accompanied her walking up.. she look so tired.. im worried that if she will be fine later or not.. i really wanted to stay in school being beside her..

She is going for the PBSM camp... and its a 6 days camp.. I for sure definately will be very very very very very missing her so much.. >< i really don't know.. I'm just tring to support everything she does.. I want to let her know I'm beside her.. I'll support everything she does.. and this camp doesn't come always.. i couldn't say i really dun wan her to leave my side.. i Cant bare to say this..

Knowing being like that.. i would be at home.. sitting down on my bed.. waiting for her sms.. looking at my phone all day long.. wonder if shes fine.. wonder if shes alright..

Sigh..

Ill stop here..

*His heart belonGs To HER* -Forever-

2008-03-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

If i ever lost you,

My days would never be the same,I

'd go over every minute every second,

And see myself the one to blame,

I'd never breathe a single breath,

Without thinking of you,

I'd never step a single step,

Without knowing what next to do,

I'd never blink a single blink,

Or shed a single tear,

Without loving you,

And wishing you were here,

I'd never hold out my arms to another,

The way i would to you,

Never kiss another,

The way that you and me do,

I would never look at another,

Or smile or laugh or cry,

For to do all that to someone else,

I would rather just die,

If i ever lost you,

I would never know what to do,

Cause there's no one in this whole wide world,

That i love as much as you.

Rui.. will you marry me? =) Hold my hands.. I'll never let it go..

2008-03-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

Being in a slow paste of learning how to understand..

I didn't really made it so bad today~ she didnt want to let me see her results.. so i'm like acting alittle sad... ><

Today when i talk to her she just keep asking me to go find my friends or something again.. looking like this.. in the other hand seeing her talking with other boys.. its like.. my heart had been knocking by a hammer everytime i see.. But i cant do anything... i didn't want to make thigs worst..

i know she just wants me to do my things too and not just being with her.. and still i have to give her space to talk with other boys and her friends.. i really cant help it when she talks with other boys more than me.. i really cant.. but i'm holding on.. knowing i cannot always be like this..

To Girls and Boys who are in relationship.. Give them their space will ya? just try.. because being together as couple.. it doesn't mean literally being together EVERY single time.. thats what i know.. I really want to be but.. i have to hang on not be like this.. i know she will only understand this sooner or later.. i just have to wait..

Tho my heart breaks sometimes.. but when i get back home ill just keep trying to fix it back.. beacuse its just a minor pieces.. and i shouldn't be like that.. Keep remembering.. Give her space... thats all i know.. =)

*Only Want HER*
* His heart belongs to HER*

2008-03-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

I did it again.. thats all i can say.. =/

I just kept on bugging her keep asking her whats wrong.. these and that.. making her thinking that i don't even trust her at all~ keep making it all seemed like i cant trust her or something... when shes busy i think she is doing something didnt want to chat with me.. when she is doing her things i think that im alone already.. things and others that made something like this..

To other couples boys/girls.. Please.. give them a break.. they have to have their own space in their lives eventhough being together with someone.. and knowing if ur gf/bf didnt want to tell you the truth they have their own reasons~ they have their own rights to decide for themselves and not YOU~ give them a break and space already~

Didn't tell you the truth doesn't mean its on purpose.. its probably because he/she doesn't want you to feel worried and sad with them.. and YES i know you wan to be sad and worried together with Him/Her.. But hey~ He/She just feels better if their ownselves being sad rather their love ones being sad too~~

this is what i learn today.. =/ im sorry darling.. forgive me please.. ><

Love You Always
Your silly piGgy

Recruits' Boots Camp

2008-03-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

I'm just gonna keep it short and simple aight? xD LOL

Day 1

First of all, i felt kinda stupid coz i'm like the earliest there waiting for those bunch of monkeys to arrive... waited around 1 hour plus? ah anyways.. (kept thinking of HER). After that the camp started when they all have arrived to the hall.. I was playing piano that time..( Missing HER). Then after that we started our programme with check in then drill, i was kinda OKAY to them.. not to fierce, not to nice...(Thinking of HER). Then after that we had sports.. I was kinda like.. er.. nothing to do.. (Missing HER so much). Waited for quite long then finaly they've finished and we proceed to our next programme which is DINNER! Yeah man! xD ( Thinking of HER). Then we have our singspiration led by me again.. I got Beaten up for singging a song trying to make them hyper~ Amazing huh? ( Thinking of HER!!!). After that we had erm.. classes for them.. during that time, we went up to our rooms.. playing.. and chatting.. and ya... thats us.. xD. After that it was lights out time.. We actually had a Fire Drill session during 2 30.. i was like.. WOOT? I'm tired like crap already~~~~~ T_T but Anyhow.. I was in charge of it too.. Making them running after they come down from their room.. Amazingly.. we had quite a laugh.. WhY? Lol~ Coz the "Superman Suit Boy" came down.. Lol~~ anyways i wun mention who and how he looks like.. after that.. yes.. SLEEP~~~~ And MISSING HER SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!

Day 2
Morning we have our P.T session.. didn't want to wake up~ so tired~~ but what to do? recruits did it.. and i have to bare with them.. ( Thinking of HER). After that breakfast.. then bla bla bla bla bla~~~~ until "Amazing Race" it was OKAY~~~ not until the police station part.. i was like.. wooot... so freaking far~ my legs numb already lar wei.. ( Hoping She's fine). After all the tiring amazing race.. we came back.. it was real heavy rain that time.. SO~ i was kind enough not to ask them do anything.. supposingly i wanted to do something with them.. but.. xD They went for rest.. ( Sobbing~~~ Missing her SO MUCH) THEN~ a Meeting was held which i didn't know about and i had to go~~~ and Yes.. kinda lame.. nobody even send me any msg telling me today had a council meeting.. swtz.. then we went down for our dinner.. THOSE WHO didn't attend for dinner that went for meeting.. sighz..( Wanting to be with HER). After all those we have our button hole.. then we have our MOVIE night~~~ which~ we've discovered our new LCpl Tummy boy~ xD kinda lame.. LOL... oh well.. anyways.. after that we went back to our rooms.. and Before that we went to bought our " Incases" lol~ special word.. then we did a room check.. I really wanted to sms with HER.. but i was so so tired couldn't open my eyes already.. T_T sorry darling.. really sorry... I know you missed me very much and i do too~ but now im back.. =) ( I LOVE YOU) xD

Day 3
Which is the last day~ Finaly~~ we have our Breakfast for a start.. then Games for teams.. sienz sia... what to do?? anyways.. we continue our programme as usual.. until button hole test.. i was incharge of drill.. so Yes.. Im the examiner for Drill.. Giving them my highest marks i could give... unfortunately some couldn't make it coz they're really DREAMING~ swtz.. after all those test and stuff.. and Yes.. some ppl failed.. unbelieavable? Believe it! LOL... after that it was time to check out... then we did.. then then then..... we went for lunch~ i sat with few of the recruits trying to be friends with them.. because i've treated them kinda harsh lately.. xD

and YES i came back home~! but i'd still miss her so much!! because i can never stop thinking of HER no mater how or what.. Because She'll always be my one and only piggy Wife forever and ever in my whole life.......=) and school is tomorrow.. so is EXAM! damn it! im so tired.. >< but no matter.. thinking of HER makes me feel better.. xD

I'M back dear.. xd <3

2008-03-11T02:38:00.000+08:00

Holidays holidays... sigh~ this can be called as the WORST holiday Ever!!!

why? thats a GREAT question!

sigh~ i jst knew my grandfather had lung cancer... whole family accompanied him to the hospital and you know what we get for an answer?? or should i say excuse... or whatever lame-er word to cover what the doctor said...

Knowing that my grandfather still can walk and talk to the doctor.. he said.. all i can do is do a check for you.. you cant stay here...

WTH???? You can't stay here?? WTH is that? am i suppose to say No for an answer from this blardy doctor?? He's coughing out BLOOD YOU FOOL! YOU'RE NOW SAYING HE CAN STAND AND WALK AND TALK AND HE CANT STAY HERE COZ OF THAT???

WHY DONT YOU TELL ME U CAN DO MORE THINGS... AND YOU DONT NEED TO EAT AT ALL!?!?

Blardy hell.. and he advised us to send him to PRIVATE hospital.. i was like.. WTH again duh.. IF WE COULD AFFORT IT WE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE WOULDN'T WE?? JEEZ BRAINLESS PPL THESE DAYS...

and Why do i feel surprised of these government hospital.... My as well blow it down! You're not even trying to help you fool! I want to see what you say if i said back the same thing to you!

PPL ARE DYING HERE AND ALL YOU CAN SAY THEY CAN WALK AND STAND THEY CANT STAY IN HOSPITAL?? what in the world?!?!

thank God i wasn't in that hospital.. i would like blow up~ I'm not taking no for an answer.. If he wants us to go private hospital.. PAY For Us Then! Makes no sense right ppl? if we could affort going to private... WE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE!!! WHy would we waste time being in those so CALLED CHEAP HOSPITAL For??? and my as well im saying.. ur HOSPITAL is full of freaking germs!

MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL! i was so freaking hurt knowing these things happen.. things just go wrong.. brainless ppl still exist in this world.. woopie.. hurrah for those idiots.. so called hospital... MY FOOT!

Sigh.. anyways.. still finding ways to cure him.. still not in a deadly situation yet.. and SAY UNTIL HERE!! u Know what they say???? They say.. they would only take him in if he is in a FINAL STAGE OF LUNG CANCER! THEN WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU PUTTING HIM IN FOR? TO TAKE FREE CASH? IM GONNA GIVE YOU FREE PUNCHES IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT! NO CHARGE AT ALL!

Today.. i've made things worst yet.. argue with HER... made her cry and sad.. wasn't that bad until i kept talking and talking.. sigh~ its like i kept bothering her so badly.. and today my parents argued too in the car while going up to grandparent's house.. sigh.. knowing how my dad speaks to my mom and both together argue.. i would say its like 85%? exactly how i argued with HER... Sigh.. Im sorry dear.. i just thuoght i knew everything and saying im always thinking on ur side already and ur not.. i know ur trying too and you do... and im asking dumb questions again and again OFCOURSE You do! i just keep being stupid.. sigh~

But anyways.. we're fine.. AGAIN.. =) heh~ GOod eh? But. aiH~ still worried of him.. dam it.. im staying in a county with no hope.. swtness..

*His Heart BeloNGs to HER too* =D <3

Didn't know

2008-03-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

I've became such a jerk to everyone... All along i thought that i'm right.. no im not!

I kept saying im changing all those things its because of her.. its because i want to be with her forever.. want her to feel better together with me..

But no..

I didn't think of changing for myself.. for both together me and her..

now i only know many people dislikes me.. and yes.. now i only get what she's saying.. and now i got my head straight.. but i need to get up first..

things just not right as the way it seems to be or think like..

IM SORRY 'HER'

Clueless~

2008-03-07T13:34:00.000+08:00

Knowing that things are going quite well, Yet still feeling so weird and probably "Awkward".

I really want to know whats going on with things happening every single thing~ I really dunno what happens but i kept on thinking what is happening in my mind.. I'm just very curious every single time..

I kept thinking and thinking~ actually what is going on.. what is going on... But do i get an answer?? very hard to get the answer..

I'm still fine with HER... I still love her as much as i do like before never changed.. not less but even more! i'm just trying to let her be and hoping everything would be fine and things would go well every single day...

Holidays heating on.. but I have to study for my freaing exam coming up after hols... Why AAH?? I'm so freaing pissed that good things that are suppose to come but yet it doesnt come.. but bad things happen again and again! But i know things would be very good after that i knoW!!!

Recruits Boots camp are up ahead.. i should be helping out there but yet the same thing over and over again... 4 years plus in BB i dont see any changes in BB that much yet.. Yet i'm still being in here wandering when will it be changing... i would try to change.. for now~ im changing my tactics of teaching my boys in BB.. Weird tho~ Sigh~ Ooh Well.. Just forget it and continue living a live which is not so interesting.. but colourful when i Met HER...

Signing out - Kenny-

L.O.V.E = Love = Effort = Suffer = Joy = Peace = Together = Forever~

2008-02-18T15:09:00.000+08:00

today would be the 4th day we've been like this.. haiz.. >< i just feel differently us being like that... can we just go back? ='( im really tired of this already.. ='( i really felt something really wrong like this..

Its just not the same if we're like that.. ='(

Please forgive me dear.. ='( i Need You.. ='(

これらすべてのことを本当に残念によると私は..アイラブユー〜もうこれはそんなことはしないしてください。

2nd day without her..

2008-02-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

haiz... eventhough without her.. it feels almost the same.. but its NOT! ='( I really want her back... i've really told myself not to be like before d le...

today whole day been thinking... haiz.. i really wun be like before d.. i can't see any colour anymore... because you're the one that coloured my life.. you are my heart.. how can i continue on without a hearT? i really need you back.. i love you~

I really love you and i can't lose you.. not even for now.. not ever.. please forgive me.. i really want you back with me dear.. i love you~~

2008-02-16T12:09:00.000+08:00

It's not even one day yet.. ='( i really can't live without you... please come back to me.. please.. ='( i promise it won't be like last time.. haiz.. i had enough le.. i don't want us to be seperated.. ='( i really cannot take it... i really cannot take it..

No matter Summer, Spring, Winter, or What so ever.. I Would still hold you in my arms never letting you be away from me.. I want to let you feel how much i love you

I promise i won't be like before being so selfish.. I just wanted to show you how much i love you and how much i needed you in my life.. I know that you know.. Please.. come back to me.. ='( I'll show you a whole new world not like before..

Please... i really need you to be in my life.. Not because i need you just for the sake of needing you.. but wanting you to be part of my life.. doing things together in the future... I love you~ Please.. i really cannot take it anymore... ='( my eyes sore.. ='( please..

I Love You.. ='(

2008-02-16T02:08:00.001+08:00

No matter what happens to us.. I would still love you dear~ I only can call you dear.. i Wun wanna call you any other than that name..

i know for now we're just like that.. i know you wan it like that.. so i accept it le.. but i know after 1 or 2 weeks later we will be like last time again.. be better.. better even more~

for these few weeks i would never think of anything but just wanting to be with you okay dear? I'm never changing love for you.. I'm stuck to you.. i need you because i want you to be part of my life.. i love you because i want to hold you in my arms and care you..

I'll wait till after those 2 weeks later.. i promise.. i Will.. when we're back.. I'll show u i've changed.. i wun be selfish anymore le okay? I LOVE YOU.. even right now~ i couldn't sleep because i can't stop thinking of you.. don't cry d le okay? i've promise you and u have to promise me that too okay? just for 2 weeks later.. i know..

I love you... I'll catch you back and never letting you fall again dear.. Never..

Everything i've said really from my heart never a lie.. i really meant how much i need and love you sweetheart..

I

LoVE

YOu

FoRevER!!!!

2008-02-15T14:38:00.000+08:00

When you said you need me.. Do you really need me or you just say it?

When you said you loved me.. Do you really love me or you're just saying it?

Will you show me that i'm really someone to you? I just want to be with you.. You asked me to go look for my friends.. u just walked away.. I kept asking you.. It's not that i don't want to think its nothing.. But do you really mean it when you said all those? I feel like im no one to you.. ='( It really hurts me.. i treat you like You're my Everything.. No matter what happens I'll be there for you.. No matter what situation i'll be by your side.. Whenver Where ever I'll Always be by your side..

I just want to be by your side.. you kept asking me to look for my friends.. Theres chance and i want to be by your side.. How am i suppose to feel that you really want me if you keep asking me to find my other friends? i really mean it that i want to be by your side.. You said, Dont need accompany me wan ma.. but i said i really want to accompany you.. do you know what i mean?

I just hope you know what i mean.. i just want to tell you what i'm really going through right now.. it's so hard for me.. i know it's hard for you too.. im really trying so so hard thinking on your side.. but. you make me feel like I'm nothing much.. i Don't want to say how much it hurts or what.. because it doesn't matter..

I really hope when you said all those you really meant it.. whatever i've said.. how much i love and care about you.. IM SHOWING to you.. by your side..

Dear.. i really cannot take it.. the other day its not really just about those 2 that night.. its that.. you could go out and with them.. but what about me? ='( I'm always hearing Next Time ok? I really don't know when is the next time.. when im 20+? 30+? i dont know.. ='( i just don't understand.. if there is something ur hiding please tell me.. i'm really feel so bad..

If you ask me if i could accompany you go anywhere.. I'll just say YES.. because what i've said i really do it.. that i'll be by your side.. i know i'm just being so hard.. but.. i really cannot continue like this.. im tired of this kind of things.. i've always heard next time.. next time.. next time.. so many..

I'm sorry i've said until so bad.. it's not your fault.. i just want to say that's how i really feel right now.. I really really want to say.. fine.. lets move on... this doesn't matter anymore.. smile okay? =).. i really can't.. because i've said i'll be very honest with you.. and i really am right now..

I really cannot continue on going back home early and letting my parents see me sad like that.. I don't want them to be worried about me.. But what can i do? i really want to feel theres nth wrong.. but its really something that makes me feel so sad..

I really want to love being by your side forever.. i know you think the same too dear.. but can you show me at least something like that? ='( i Don't want to end our relationship just because of all these fighting... I'm tired of these fighting.. I want to end it~ please... ='( please tell me if you're hiding anything..

I've made a small video yesterday and i want to show you today.. its actually for valentines day.. i know the video is nothing special.. but i really did it with my heart.. i really do all i can to show you how much I LOVE YOU!!!!

Please.. Don't leave me.. ='(

Valentine's Day

2008-02-14T18:24:00.001+08:00

My first Valentine's day with HER... i know its nothing special.. i got her a necklace and letter and of course her fav..chocolate.. =) I really hope you love it dear..

And she gave me her heart and love.. Thats more than enough i can ask for.. i really mean it.. As long as shes happy being with me and loving me.. Thats all it matters.. and I would be the same to Her.. Never ending love.. Never changing love..

Eventhough i couldn't celebrate with her by going out like others.. i know next year.. i know~ we can go out together and celebrate.. i have faith in both of us..

The necklace i really wanted to leave it until we go out again and i help her to wear it... I wanted to do that so badly.. but.. >< i just don't know when is the next time we can go out dear.. i really don't know...

But no matter.. today is the first valentines day with her.. i really want to treassure it and let it be one of my best memories in my life.. i hope it is to her too.. =/ =)

I love you until the end.. no matter what happens to me.. or whatever happens.. I'd still love you until the end.. I will love you until even if the world had no love anymore i would still love you... that's all i really meant to say it.. every single time i say those 3 words it means alot of meaning.. but those 3 words explains it all..

I wish i could hold your hands right now being beside you.. =/

2008-02-13T13:52:00.000+08:00

Sigh... things just won't go right.. >< while school is going to end i was in the class.. i went out awhile and i saw her.. then i came back to the class then i kept looking outside.. i stand up and kept looking outside.. hoping that she can see me.. or better yet hoping i can see her.. =/

after school i was infront of her.. i don't know.. i felt like im just a wooden block that is blocking her way... then she walks away.. *grabs heart* i knew she was busy.. i knew.. aih~ i wait for her awhile even after i say i'm going off.. then i asked her that why like she don't even know me.. she was really busy.. i knew le.. i knew.. =( then she walked real fast.. and i hurry went up too.. thought just to say bye.. she ran so fast and i went up.. can't see her.. i don't see her anywhere.. ='( until i went back down.. i saw her coming down the stairs.. then i just say im off now..

aih~ its my fault le.. knowing shes busy all the time.. i'd still keep blocking her.. >< sorry dear.. i'm really sorry.. i just wish i could be noticed..

I wish i was as invisible as you make me feel.. but its not her fault.. its just me kept thinking like that.. i really don't know what else to explain to make people to understand how i feel.. i really can't.. ='(

我是不是很傻...? =/ keep thinking negative.. but i really did think positive so much.. i really din think anything bad.. just made me feel sad.. whatever i do.. i do it not just for myself.. but for you too.. no matter what i'm doing if anything happen to her.. i would be right beside her no matter what! i really don't know.. I really gave everything i have to her.. i put her first in my whole life.. i take this thing so real.. i'm not playing a love game.. i just want to live and be happy with her forever.. i never even ONCE thought we would end any soon.. thats why its for real..

我是很没用?=/ i've already done my best... and its not enough.. everytime when she needs me.. I've REALLY tried my best put down EVERYTHING and just concentrate on her!!! when she sms me.. call me or wad.. i PUT DOWN EVERYTHING!!! I don't even care if its so damn important that has to do with my life or what! ='( i really did my best dear.. can u see? ='(

I'm down on my knees... praying to God that everyday you'll be happy.. and i'd be happy together with you.. i just want to be like the normal couple.. being together happy holding hands never letting go..

valentines is tomorrow.. sigh.. i just hope at least just for tomorrow we'll be very happy just for once.. ='( i'm gonna give you something.. this thing i really wanted to help you to wear it.. but.. knowing i don't know when is the 'next time' we could go out together.. so i had no choice but just to give it to you like that..

i just pray.. please.. i just want both of us being happy.. anything tell each other.. solve it together.. Never hiding anything from each other.. i love you and i really meant it from the bottom of my heart.. i want to carry you up and i won't let you down..

<3 i just hope <3

2008-02-11T00:29:00.001+08:00

my friends tell me.. that.. the problem is.. the boy gets hurt real badly... why? its because my friend who is the boy.. who was really deeply hurt by the other girl.. why again u ask? let me tell you... its actually nobody's fault~

true love? Until now i won't say i know much about it even though im involve in a relationship.. is that.. 2 person loves each other and trust each other with their heart~ when either sides know they are still loving the same person or not as they use to? and continue saying loving him/her just because they promised each other forever... its really a fake..

please.. Boys or Girls!!! if you realize that you don't love Him/Her the way u use to! TELL!!! It's really hurting that each other felt different... as if they are just normal.. as in.. the boy would think she still love him... because he trusts her.. for BOYS SAME THING! Please.. tell each other how u all feel about.. It's really damn hurting if each other is lying to each other like that..

2008-02-09T21:29:00.001+08:00

Jealous.. jealous.. and jealous... sigh... What's going on inside my head.. i really don't know.. so many things that made me feel all so sad..

jealous that someone else can be seeing her.. sitting next to her.. comment her more.. or something else i couldn't imagine.. i just wish i could be like that.. i kept telling myself not to be sad or being jealous about it.. no big deal..

i felt that we're away from each other and not next to each other ='( i really just wish we could be like the others.. my heart.. cries for you.. i couldn't get rid of that jealousy.. all i wanted is just to be like the others... being away from each other im really feeling nothing.. i want to be next to you.. im scared that we're going to lose each other.. ='( its really heart breaking..

can anyone just teach me what to do? i fell, im weak, i can't get up.. ='(

it's all my fault.. please help me..

2008-02-03T16:28:00.001+08:00

Have i Lost hope?

Have i lost myself?

Have i ever thought what will happen the next day?

Theres so much things to think about... Why do i keep thinking so much?

Am i just creating troubles for myself.. or rather for others too?

Theres so much more things to figure..

Im even playing sudoku~ swtness~~

I just want to go on with a simple life...

i just want to live with HER

That's all im asking for..

Every single day i've been thinking what will happen next even if i were smiling..

sigh~ =/

2008-01-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

Haiz...

Something is just wrong.. i know it.. I've ruined everything... Why must i be like this? I keep asking myself for what? im really really really confused.. i kept thinking if it is........

i Don't think i want to know what is it le... i really don't want to know.. i can't bare to know what is it.. im really.. aih~ its like i have no.. no power to stand up already.. I really don't know what to do... someone pls give me some advice.. i don't want Something bad to happen.. ><

Sorry ='(

2008-01-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry that I can’t do things right

I’m sorry for being the reason why Sometimes you cry at night.

I'm sorry for not being perfect

I'm sorry I disappoint.

I'm sorry that I'm a pain

And sometimes I miss the point.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough

I'm sorry I let you down.

I'm sorry for my insecurities

I'm sorry for screwing around.

I'm sorry for my moodiness

I'm sorry for my tears.

I'm sorry for my feelings

And I'm sorry for my fears

I'm sorry for taking you for granted

I'm sorry for not loving you enough

I'm sorry for not being there for you

I'm sorry for you,

And I'm sorry for me

But most of all, I'm sorry for being sorry.

2008-01-29T23:47:00.001+08:00

How great? How great what? there is nothing great... sigh~ whats more great if you.. no wait.. I did what i did today~ how could i possibly forgive myself doing things like this.. If you know what is the thing i did.. you won't even forgive.. u would probably say that I don't even have a heart.. I have a feeling im starting to loose it.. Why do I have to always be so sensative???

Please.. is there a way to CURE this Sensativeness? i really want to find out how to get rid of it.. I've really had it already~ im Fed up! really Fed up!!! I can't stand this any longer!

All i do is always because of this sensative making people so hard to live with me~ HO YEW HON! YOU'RE JUST TOO SENSATIVE TO ANYTHING ANY OTHER PEOPLE DO! MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! SO WHAT?? YOU THINK CARING IS LIKE THAT??? YOU'RE JUST MAKING OTHER PEOPLES' LIFE EVEN HARDER TO LIVE!!!!

-Kenny- i should put a.k.a ho yew hon -.-

2008-01-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

Because of Her, I'm never lost in this world

Because of Her, I know what to do

Because of Her, I've learn to be a better person

Because of Her, I've changed to someone to understand someone more better

Because of Her, I've learn how to care about

Because of Her, I've learn how to appreciate

Because of Her, I've learn the way to think

Because of Her, I'm never alone in the dark

Because of Her, I'm being cared

Because of Her, I Believed in Hope

Because of Her, I Believed in Faith

Because of Her, I Believe in Everything

Because of Her, My life became colourful

Because of Her, My life had another purpose and meaning~

Because of You.. I'm never giving up anything in my life, especially YOU!!!
No matter what happens.. What obstacles, or anything that tries to block our way~ I will not let that happen.. This i promise you.. <3

2008-01-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say
"Wait for me, I’ll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late'

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Will you?

2008-01-19T19:34:00.000+08:00

Aih~...

Will you be right beside me if i only had one last day?

Will you keep asking me if I'm okay even if i say I'm really FINE?

Will you come together with me to the place I've never been before?

Will you come and fly in the sky with me?

Will you jump with me if i said Trust Me..?

Will you be coming to look for me if someone called you and said that i was involved in a accident?

Will you Stand beside me or would you stand beside your friends?

Will you keep asking me a lot things when i'm away just because you are really worried and cared about me?

Will you be calling me first thing when you get home from somewhere and say that you miss me?

Will you hold me tight and say " I'm Never letting go of you even if it's my last breath"?

Will you be holding me too and saying that " I cant live without you"?

Will you be calling me at night and say that you love me?

Will you be doing something VERY SPECIAL just because it is a Sunday? or whichever days?

Will you stay up all night laying down beside me looking up in the sky for Stars?

Will you hold me whole night without letting me go?

Will you ever say that " I would never stop loving you... and even if this is my last breath, it wouldn't be the last.."?

Will you just call me anytime to ask if I'm okay?

Will you rush all the way from your house to mine just because i told u i was sick?

Will you accompany me for the whole programme eventhough its Super Boring?

Will you look me in the eyes one day saying that " You're Perfect"?

Will you keep holding me beside you while we're out and say that I Have a Perfect Pair!?

Will you???

Actually this is all the things i would do.. would you do the same? ><

I NEED YOU!!!

I Need You ='(

2008-01-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing’
cause that’s just how you are
And I can’t turn back now’
cause you’ve brought me too far
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

I Need you.. ='(

2008-01-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

Well, lets see... Quite a long time i didn't post any updates here... hmmm..

Erm, nothing much actually... Things have been going well with HER these days.. =) thats the best.. though a bad thing i thought was about to happen and Thank God it didn't happen.. ^^ Just miss her so much eventhough i still get to see her in school... lolz.. Probably this is called missing tooo much.. xD

Last saturday was alittle special in BB because our Brothers and Sisters from 4th Kajang came to visit us and for some fellowship together with us.. Then again.. i was the guitarist again~ not surprised? xD so am i.. xD hahaha... We really rocked the house!!! xD we played few games... a Game from Voon which is kinda confusing though he said it was a 5 year old game... LOLZ... 4th Kajang Captain introduced a game to us too.. it was fun... until i was BACKSTABBED by SOMEONE i dun wan to say who~ Lolz.. i wanted to kill him~ it was a song game passing shoes around.. HE STOLED MINE!!!Then i was being kicked out.. lolz~ oh well.. just a game...

We had a Nco Council meeting too.. i went for the meeting for about half of it i think... Well, i got a new post as being in charge of Membership.. and Squad leader... I will continue to strive to be the best... im ready for MORE!

Advance course is at march and im guessing things would go well larh as for as i know.. xD

well i guess thats it... CIaoz~~~~ xD

2007-12-31T00:05:00.000+08:00

Tagged by HER - Lolz...

1. What is your dream when you were a small kid?
er.. games? lolz... XD to play and have more fun? lolz

2. What is the happiest thing in your life?
Meeting HER, Being with her.. and Living to Know more about God

3.What do you wish to have right now?
Well, actully quite a few.. BUT.. All i wan from now until forever is HER =3

4.When was the last time you horse laugh?
Seriously, i have no idea.. i think it was yesterday.. because of my friends made me laugh all night.. lol~

5. What did you realise recently?
That this holiday was so meaningless without HER.. and That i can't live without HER

6. Which bad habit in you is the most unacceptable?
being too sensative? >< and messing things up..

7. When you are unhappy, what will you do?
I would only hold teddy and kept thinking of HER.. ='(

8.What are you afraid of losing?
HER!!! I don't even care if i lost my computer my wallet my what ever.. just can't lose her.

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic?
er... Seriously again.. i have no idea~ LOL.... XD

10. When you met someone you like, will you profess or hide your feelings?
er... i wouldn't wanna care much because I've already have HER by my side ^^

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
1st is.. hmm.. Liars.. yes yes.. them!! Lol...
2nd.. probably will be those lame ppl who tries to show off..
3rd is erm... well.. is.. erm... Ppl that doen't make any sense at all..

12. Define lonliness.
Without her.. without anyone by my side.. =(

13. Are you satisfied with you life now?
well.. not really yet.. i still have so many things to do.. especially together with HER. =(

14.When is the most recent time you felt touched?
When the day me and Her playing sms with long and touching messages.. XD

15. Where is the most beautiful place you have visited?
Her HEART <3

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently
Secret.. XD.. no seriously.. the song name is Secret.. LOL XD

17. If you had a wish that come true, what is it?
That SHE would be very happy togeher with me.

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
NEXT YEAR!!! SPM!!! LOL!!!

19. If the world is going to end, what will you do?
Hold Teddy and HER tight with me. Telling HER how much i love her and will never leave her no matter what.

20. Do you love the person that tagged you?
OFCOURSE!!! SHE's my EVERYTHING.. !! =)

2007-12-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

Well.. Lets see.. dont know anything to write much though.. >< Yesterday i've hurt HER again.. ='( why? good question.. It's because of me being so much jealous again!!! I don't know whats wrong with me la.. always being like that.. Why can't i just not be so sensative?? Why?? Is there a way to get rid of it? If yes.. I'd do anything or Give anything to do to get rid of it.

So many things that im sensative to.. I'm really just trying to not bother so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But WHy is it so hard??? Can someone tell me how to solve? someone in a relationship perhaps? or have experiences like this? it really kills me.. and Her most important.. i don't want us to be so unhappy because of this stupid habit!!!

I really don't want to scare her until Bad thing happen!!! Im really going crazy.. I've been thinking each and everynight!!! How can i get rid of this stupid habit!!!

I love her.. i trust her.. somehow is because that im not comfortable is other boys are like trying to get close to her. I'm just really sensative because im scared that anything will happen!!!! damn!!! It's crap!!! i really can't take it!!! Damn it!!!!

I trust you.. I believe in you.. No matter what happens you would still be together with me.. I just want to let you know.. I'm being like this is because im afraid they would hurt you. And trust me i know what kind of person are all those person im not happy with... not to say not happy with.. just kept thinking they would make you or something. I can't help it it's because i Must protect you!!! I can never let anything bad happen to you.. i Can't...

Just want you to feel comfortable with me.. i know you can't yet.. It's because of ur age.. i know.. and I know as you grow you will be more comfortable with me. It's okay that you talk with boys or what okay? i just want you to know that im thinking of you every single time.. if its a bad person thats why im unhappy.

I'm just going to change to be better.. no matter how. i will change.. for the better.. i know you would be more comfortable with me..

2007-12-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

Now i found out that love.. Well, definately not just to Love the person.. But to think for that person. To care for them. Think on their side. I certainly didn't do that part.. All along i've been thinking that when we're together.. Means giving each other SO much attention. I Did that to her. But she didn't.. I'm not saying she's wrong.. But in another way.. Im saying I am the one who is wrong. Thinking that maybe she didn't give me enough attention meaning that im not important to her? ><

That day i've been thinking.. and hitting back myself asking.. Would you only want to give her all your attention? In your life are you going to just be with her? Talk with her? Sleep With Her? Eat Wif Her? Everything else ONLY with HER? I then definately felt how she is feeling right now. I wouldn't want her to do everything Only wif me. What about doing other things? I'm just not thinking right.

Then another thing i ask.. Would you want to spent your life Not ever talking to Girl? except for Her? Are You? Eventhough its a Yes.. I'm being selfish thinking that it's only fair that if She does the same for me not to go close to other boys.. I am so so so so Wrong. I should know better than keeping her away from all those. I've always been so selfish~ I never think for her.. Never think on her side of thoughts.

Now i know.. I'm really really really really really trying to be better. I hope you know that. :'( I just want you to feel comfortable with me. Not to let me keep u to myself only. I realy regret i did something like this. I never thought i would do something selfish like this. I've changed to not to mind so much anything she does.. like talking to boys.. doing her things first.. or such.. I just have to change.. i can't hang on being the Yewhon who is so selfish.

It's all about me i've been thinking.. but what about Her?

okay okay~ I'll end here first... I now felt Love, I saw love.. :'(

I'm Sorry dear.. I'm sorry i couldn't be perfect.. I really just wished that i am as Perfect as the Christmas Tree. :'(

2007-12-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

Looks like Christmas had just pass... and School is starting soon already. Some how this year seems to be alittle different than the past few years. But YET... its also different becoz i had someone special with tme this year. Who is SHE.. =) eventhough its not nothing special this year but SHE made it different still somehow. Eventhough we couldn't meet up each other to celebrate Christmas together.. It's still one Christmas day i wont forget..but somehow she didn't have a great Christmas.. she was sad allittle.. becoz of something.

School starting soon... First or probably the second time i would say that i can't wait for it to begin again~ Because i can see my Friends... and the Most Important is HER ^^

Well, im taking my driving license real soon.. hoping that i can pass real easily.. which i think i can.. =) and SPM next year.. Whew.. what a killer.. i dunno how am i going to survive.. But i pray that things would go well.. Things won't be so stressful and stuff.. =)

Cant wait for School... Miss you dear...

2007-12-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

What is love? What is called a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship??? By seeing a HOT guy or girl and tell them u fall in love with him/her? Bluffing that You love them becoz of who they are?

Being together for quite awhile like 1 month? 2 month? 3 month max? or perhaps just few weeks..? is it a game? Because im starting to think its a game. Probably its not my problem or my business that people are doing like that.. But Whats the meaning of Love? I'm not saying that i know but all I know is that if both of you chose to be together.. What is there to fight and conclusion end up breaking up?? after that wad? got another new relationship in the next 1 week? 2? 3?

Isn't it sickening?? My Brothers and Sisters.. if it's like that we should love each other as friends.. As families.. If you think both of you might have some problem and ending up seperating why would you choose to be together? if its yes being together isn't things should be working out fine? even if things don't work out fine, Do it together.. Solve it together.. does it even make sense???

What is all this... " I Love YOu Forever" ? " I will take care of you for the rest of my life"? or what about " IM being with you until the ends of this earth"? when you Boys say it.. You guys really mean it? Girls saying back that u love him.. u would be in his arms forever. What is all This " FOrever and Ever Baby" ??????????

If our Love for God is like that.. can you imagine how hurting it is? I've heard my friend saying so much love that God loves us and we Love God. God loves us as much as u can imagine the highest mountain to the ground.. he cares for us so much! God still accepts you if you ask him for forgiveness!! and He still Loves you So much as how he loved the others as well. Where can you find love like this?
I believe in those true love being together.. I definately don't believe True love that has no problem. Problem comes because God wants to give you a chance to Endure! Obstacles come to everyone to learn to ENDURE~

Boys and Girls who read this and who are thinking of starting relationship or already in one.. Hope you guys understand what am i trying to point out here.. So what if you start thinking of relationship when ur in primary.. i mean as in stanard 5 minimum i think.. or secondary school? So what?? Endurance makes the difference of the others! I Believe that starting from secondary.. Why not? Im doing it~ and Im not afraid.. eventhough.. yes.. i made alot mistakes.. i really cant endure.. i know God is helping me.. He is right beside me.. pushing me back up~!

LOVE is a strong word.. when You say I LOVE YOU to someone.. it really makes a difference.. Don't believe me? test it.. Go infront of ur fren say that.. see what happens.. but thats not the point.. SWT... Take things like this seriously dont you think its better? as in not just.. he dun uderstand me.. she dun understands me.. he doesn't care about my feelings.. and YOU DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT AND JUST SAY " LETS BREAK UP" whats the meaning? no meaning.. rite? people ended up gettin hurt.. crying all night.. even 3 months.. or plus.. i know.. do you know when someone get hurt.. as in love sick or probably sumthing else.. people get crazy? or maybe paralyzed.. do you know? but as in not paralyzed forever.. and not whole body.. i guess maybe hands? legs? or something.

Im not saying is to force being together still if just for the sake of this? im just trying to say is.. Hang on wif each other.. Things really really cant work out.. then you think about it seriously..

=) With Love..

2007-12-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is... You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is you You
baby I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to Hear those magic reindeers click 'Cause
I just want you here tonight Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...
Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is... You
All I want for Christmas is you... baby

What does all these makes all of you feel out there?

2007-12-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

I really don't know how to put it this time.. This way?, That way? Some Way? ='( I did it AGAIN.. I just don't know why do i have to ruin everything!!!! Damn it! Tell Me why!!! I'm really lost.. Just wished someone would give me a sign of doing something i should do that won't hurt anyone.

I sat down since when she was i don't know.. Angry? sad? worried? sigh~ But she went to play badminton. I sat looking at the wall until she comes back like i cant remember 9 something or 10 something. She was fine by then.. so i said that i'm fine too since she's okay.. I'm the reason that she is sad.. She's the reason that i am Sad.

She went to have her late dinner and bath.. So i went to have my dinner too.. Couldn't eat much.. But.. what the heck.. I don't deserve anything. I won't expect anything good. Because when I think about how much it will happen.. How much it WONT happen~

I asked her when would she go out with me. She said she has problem going out. Then she said that tomorrow might be going out with Sam. I don't know am i saying that right thing. I'm really disappointed that since the holidays started i've been hoping and looking foward that we will go out some times. At least just ONE time it'll be enough. But.. I'm guessing it might not happen.. Because the more i hope and the more i feel it will happen.. The more it wont happen.. Things like that happen in my life. It's like good things are not meant to come towards me. Im just clueless.. God.. please just give me a sign what to do.

- Just wish.. MAYBE it'll come true.. =/

2007-12-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

These days still being at home doing nothing much but talking with HER =P but that's all i can ask for because knowing that she can't always go out.. So i understand its hard. Days passing by after the week of sadness, things are going quite well can say.

Well, erm.. Speaking of yesterday i went out to have supper with my parents and after i came back i looked for her online.. So we chat quite awhile then she had to off already. Not allowed to on until so late.. but ofcourse i have to agree =P haha. " Dont on until so late ah u " XD hahaha....

Anyways after that she miss called me and i was thinking either she's bored or something happen.. lolz.. guess what.. Shes bored.. =P hahahha.. But sadly to say is that i couldn't accompany her talking on the phone like before. Because before it was like we always talk until 3 or 4 am? or earlier lah.. haha.. But because of the phone bill increasement in Such a big number. So i had no choice but to cut down.. She has to do it too.. Sigh..

Yesterday i used my phone to called her.. But it was only awhile.. >< phone was almost out of credit.. i was so sad to know that she is so bored and i cant accompany her.. I felt bored too. All i can do is to think of her. Knowing how important she is in my life. And i know that she would be dissapointed that i couldn't accompany her long. Just hope we can go out.. Still hoping that we can go out and celebrate Early Christmas =)

Missed You so much b... =/